[He doesn't know if he deserves it, actually, but when Barry says it, it's easier to believe. Even easier when he's kissed so sweetly like this, and it already feels like better than anything.]
Want you just like this. Just like... fuck, you're so sweet.
[Just like Barry, Jason starts kissing him all over. Lips, jaw, down his neck for a moment before he lifts his head to look at his fucking incredible boyfriend.
Balloons and food are pretty damn cool, but only cause it's Barry. he's the best part of all this.]
Always hungry, babe. For you. But also for that cupcake. And then I want you to gimme a tour cause this place is dope as fuck.
[ The kisses and touches have Barry humming in delight to no one's surprise and he feels so happy in this moment here. Happy to have Jason here at his place, happy he likes the balloons and little snack party he'd put together. Happy that he's happy with the day in general, even if it's only really just begun for them.
Letting fingers brush down the side of the other's neck, he smiles as he wraps an arm around his waist and keeps him close for just a little longer. ]
Unwrap me later, ok?
[ Stealing a quick but heated kiss, Barry bumps his nose against Jason's before he laughs and pulls back โ food is to be had after all. So, grabbing hold of Jason's hand, he tugs him over to the table with the snacks on it and grabs the small plate with the lion cupcake on it, the flame of the candle flickering away.
Turning some, he holds the plate out towards Jason and smiles, gesturing to the candle with a nod of his head. ]
[ Jason has always wanted to belong. He's craved it for so long that it started turning in on itself. Makes him push people away and put distance between it all, because he wants it so bad that he isn't even sure it's feasible. He wants it so much that he doesn't trust it.
But here, in this moment, he feels it. He belongs here, he belongs with Barry. God, he fucking loves being Robin too and he'd do anything to stay with Bruce, but this... this is different, and Jason is excited at the thought that maybe this can be it for him too.]
Better fuckin' believe I'm gonna unwrap you later.
[ He's all in when it comes to the heated kiss, and then he laughs and pulls back too, biting at his lower lip as he heads to the table with Barry, looking at all the snacks and the lion cupcake. it's a detail that he kinda adores- not that he's big on astrology or whatever, but he remembers when the strippers his uncle used to hang out with would try to get him all into it. It's cute, and so Barry, and he loves it.
A Birthday wish... It's such a stupid, childish thing, but he doesn't care right now. This is how Barry makes him feel, and he knows what it's going to be. Closing his eyes, he makes his wish, then opens them up again and blows the candle out, a soft smile on his face afterwards. ]
[ When Jason makes his wish and blows the single candle out on the lion cupcake there, Barry can't help but feel so happy for this moment โ not for him, but for Jason. It may not be like any of the lavish parties Bruce has and is capable of throwing, but. Giving Jason something as meaningful as this moment right here is all that really matters. Especially when he wants nothing more than for the other to enjoy himself on this day. ]
Yeah. Of course it will.
[ And he's so earnest and honest in the way he both smiles and says that.
With a kiss stolen from those lips, he scoops a fingerful of frosting and wipes it on Jason's nose, Barry laughing a little before he leans in to lick it off. ]
[ Hope can be such a fickle thing. Wishes even more than that. But the way Barry says yes, it'll come true, Jason believes it. He doesn't need a lavish party. He doesn't ever want one. This is it. This is perfect.
He doesn't think he's ever smiles this much in his entire life, and it doesn't stop even as Barry kisses him again. Then dissolves into laughter as he gets frosting wiped on his nose and licked off. ]
Hey, as I fucking recall, you were supposed to be the one covered in frosting.
[ he plucks the candle out and takes a bite of the cupcake because obviously that's what needs to be eaten first, before holding it out for Barry to take a bite too. ]
[ Even as he speaks, he can't help but laugh, leaning in to take a generous bite of the cupcake because, well, he likes food and can't help himself, ok? Either way, he licks over his lips with that still bright smile before he makes his way over to where he keeps his fridge. ]
I also forgot to offer drinks. What do you want? I have, uh... [ Taking a moment to look through the fridge, he taps his fingers along the side of the door. ] ...water? A lot of water โ oh. Doubleshot over ice? Got that, too.
[ He... maybe should have checked to stock this first. ]
[Cake isn't exactly a thing in the Wayne household... even if Alfred does sneak Jason sweets here and there, so when he gets to eat cake first? He's definitely gonna be doing that.]
Definitely happening at some point. Are you a food in bed kinda person? I bet you are.
[snackhole boyfriend tbh. Jason is here for it. Between the two of them they're almost done with the cupcake in one go, and Jason takes another bite but also grabs a handful of chips as he follows after Barry, looking around. He can't believe how many balloons there are. It's magical.]
Water's good. You gonna gimme a tour? This place is dope as fuck. Like damn, it's unreal.
Grabbing a water for Jason, he blinks over to him before he huffs a laugh at the description of his place. Honestly, he likes a lot himself. It's just... something of his and pretty much has everything that he needs. So for Jason to find it "dope as fuck" and not be all "why the hell are you living in a train yard???" he appreciates it.
Handing the water bottle over, he closes the fridge door and puffs his cheeks for a moment. ]
Uh... sure? We can do that โ if you'll just follow me.
[ Nodding his head, he grins as he makes his way over to his "work area" you could say. ]
So this is where I sit and work โ sometimes eat. Just, you know, hang out I guess. [ To say the least. However, pointing over yonder, ] Bedroom kinda area is thataway, bathroom close by, too. Lots of... open space to, you know, run around in or whatever.
[Jason wouldn't mind living in a place like this. He'd love it, actually. It really does seem like Barry has everything he needs here, and it's a place of his own. Almost makes him wish he lived in Central City so he could hang out here with Barry all the time.
He snags the water and stick it under his arm, offering Barry his last bite of cupcake before he follows him around the place, trying to take in every last, very cool detail.]
Wait, wait you gotta show me more of your bedroom.
[Even if they might get stuck there? Maybe that's fine though? They have time, and Jason's feeling some kinda way right now.]
Do you run around in here? Like test out your suit and stuff?
[ Oh he absolutely figures they'll end up in there for An Extended Period Of Time, but. Jason wants to see his place so Jason is going to see his place... and the lack of much there to begin with in terms of multiple floors and rooms. ]
You really eager to unwrap your present, huh?
[ Teasing, he nods though and runs the tips of his fingers over his lips as he glances around. ]
Yeah, sometimes. I mean โ I have a pretty good handle on it now, but. It's a lot better to do that outside with more space, you know?
[ Good, good. As long as it's expected. As much as Jason wants to see everything and get to know all of Central City and everything Barry loves, but he also doesn't need a whole planned out schedule like what Bruce would do. He just wants to be with Barry in every way possible. ]
I'm not super known for being patient.
[ he smirks, but it's cool. he really is good with anything they do. he's already completely swept off his feat. his kinda riding this really good high right now. ]
Yeah, makes sense. So cool that you can go anywhere you want. But if I lived in this place? I'd never go anywhere, it's so cool.
Oh really? So you wouldn't even come to see me, huh?
[ He's teasing as he saunters his way on up to the other, grin on his lips, arms looping around that waist. Keeping Jason nice and close against him as he cocks his head to the side, that look of amusement still there on his face. ]
Because as cool as this place is... kinda think being with you is cooler.
[ Yeah he sounds like a dork and yeah he's sure chuckling a little at himself for it. But he also doesn't really care because... Jason is here. In his place and they have... well, not all the time in the world, but. Enough. At least for now and Barry intends to make the most of it. ]
A place this cool would only be this cool cause of you, you know.
[ Jason replies easily, more than happy to lean right into Barry when his arms loop around him. He bites at his lip, just watching him with this completely aroused look on his face. Barry's a dork, and Jason loves it. It does things to him.
He pulls his boyfriend in a little closer as he slides his arms around his shoulder, hips pressing forward casually. ]
Kinda wanna do you right now. Or you do me. I'm really good either way, as long as you give me a personal tour of your bed.
[ Because he can and he will... but not before sinking teeth into that bottom lip of his and deciding to be a little... mischievous what with those hips pressing into his so blatantly and all. So, leaning in, he hums as he drags his lips across Jason's cheek and along his temple, smiling as hands hold tight to the small of his back. ]
You're the birthday boy today. You get to have me however you want. If you want me on my knees sucking you off until you can't come anymore, I will. If you wanna fuck my face and feed me your cum until I can't take anymore, you can. If you wanna have my on my hands and knees and see how good I take your cock from behind, I can do that as many times as you'd like.
[ Grinning against the shell of Jason's ear, he smooths his hands down the other's sides and nips at his ear then, pulling back with an All Too Innocent look on his face. ]
Or I can do any of those things to you. It's your call. You're in charge. I'm here to please you in every way you want.
[ Jason lets out a low groan, letting his eyes fall closed as Barry moves his lips across his skin. He's never been loud before, never been one to make much noise at all while fucking- that would give too much of himself away- but with Barry? He doesn't hesitate to let him pull every kinda of sound out of him. It says a lot, even if Barry doesn't know it.
But holy fuck, Barry doesn't stop there, and Jason is a little embarrassed at how hard he gets from those words alone.
But even more so, when he thinks about what he really wants, and it isn't exactly any of those things. Not just yet, anyways.
He doesn't mean to shift his hips away, or let his gaze slide over to the rack of books rather than at Barry, or let his fingers curl into fists instead of letting them splay out against Barry's back. But there's still this whole fight or flight thing inside of him, and the way he swears he'd never want to trust anyone like this, and yet here he is. ]
[ Barry knows there's a softness within Jason that he doesn't usually let others see. He doesn't entirely know the reasons for it, but he knows that the other can be and is often guarded a lot of the time, even if some of those walls have been crumbling a bit ever since... all of this between them started.
There isn't a look of surprise or disappointment on his face when Jason suggests something softer. Rather, Barry pulls back just enough to be able to smile down to him and run a palm over his cheek, cradling his face as softly as Jason wants soft for his birthday. ]
We can do softer.
[ Letting the pad of his thumb brush under Jason's eye, he leans in to brush a tender kiss over those lips with the sweetest of hums on them. ]
We can do anything you want. [ A beat, he noses Jason. ] I can let you feel how much you mean to me.
[ Barry's gentle touch brings his gaze back, hesitantly. He should want all those other things Barry suggested- and he does, but- he wants this more. It's not something he ever really lets himself have. Or... didn't let himself before Barry came along.
He feels a little less of kilter when Barry agrees to it, and he can see that it's a genuine thing. Barry isn't rolling his eyes at his weak ass shit, or thinking he's like, losing his touch, or whatever.
In any other situation he might feel a little pathetic, which would probably lead to anger, but that's not the case here. Barry is already so soft with him- even before this, he realizes- and he relaxes back against him, fingers uncurling into the other man's hair. ]
[ Barry likes soft and slow as much as he likes quick and dirty and with Jason especially. That's how this all aort of started anyways. Jason suggesting he help him experience things a little slower in the moment. Somehow it's led them to this โ to everything theyvet been through and, Barry hopes, will continue to go through as the days carry on. So slow is perfectly fine with him. As is soft.
The smile he wears is that โ soft and he hums just the same when those fingers find themselves in his hair, arms holding right around that waist of his. ]
I'll show you then. [ Brushing the words against those lips. ] I'll make you feel it all, baby.
[ That's about all that Barry plans to say before he's gripping tight to Jason and, using a bit of his quick reflexes to add a bit of strength to his movements, he hoists Jason up against him, intending to carry him where Jason can slot and wrap his legs around his waist. ]
[ It's still kinda hard for Jason to believe that everything in his life has lead to things like this. Like Robin, and now Barry, and this chance to just be. He remembers telling Dick when they first met that he knew exactly who he was, but maybe that was only one side of him, because now? He feels like he's letting himself tap into even more.
He feels warm and soft at Barry's words, already feeling so into it. When does he not though, when it comes to Barry.
Jason's surprised when Barry hoists him up so easily, a soft laugh breathed out against Barry's lips as he moves his legs around his waist. ]
[ Smiling right back against those lips, Barry makes sure he has a tight enough hold on Jason before he starts to walk, carrying his boyfriend the birthday boy in the direction of his room โ which, by the way, is very much Out In The Open given the layout of the warehouse sort of loft life he lives.
He peppers Jason's face and neck in soft little kisses as he maneuvers around a couple things for his bed, the trip to it not all that long. When he's there, he gently drops Jason down on the edge of the bed and smiles warmly as he just stands there in front of him, letting hands softly cup the sides of his neck. ]
Tell me if it's ever too much for you, ok?
[ Words soft but with an understanding that this may be overwhelming, in a way, to Jason and the last thing he wants is for him to feel as if he's suffocating from something that he intends to be the physical show of how much he means to him.
Either way, he lets his hands smooth down the sides of that neck and brush over the front of Jason's shirt, Barry dropping down to his knees to slot himself there between Jason's legs, kissing at his neck and chest even with clothes still on. ]
[ Maybe not here here exactly, but here with Barry in every other way. This is something he desperately wants to hold on to, despite how much he knows he fucks things up. He feels like he's getting better at it though, at least with Barry.
Jason tightens his legs around Barry as he starts to move, letting him leave all those kisses against his skin. It all makes him smile. He can't stop smiling, actually.
He figures Barry's room is all out in the open, and that's pretty cool too. Not like they have to lock doors here like he's used to doing in the manor. They have all the privacy they want here. It helps to make Jason even more comfortable with what he's asked for, because this really is just them.
He looks up at Barry when he's set down on the bed, his hands sliding to the other man's waist, just up under his shirt. The fact that Barry even realizes that even though Jason asked for it, it might still be overwhelming... it means a lot to Jason, and he knows he made the right decision with all of this. ]
I will.
[ Jason doesn't take his eyes off Barry as he moves down to his knees between his legs, his own hands sliding up along his shoulders, caressing up along his neck. ]
[ Barry is slow and gentle with every single touch, kiss, and movement of his. He wants Jason to enjoy this in a way that doesn't overwhelm him (much) to the point of it being borderline uncomfortable. From the little he knows of his past and the way people perceive him more often than not, asking something like this from him โ to be shown in a physical way how much he means to the speedster โ is probably a little scary... maybe he doesn't even think he deserves it; he does, as far as Barry is concerned. But rather than assume any of this, Barry just has little cues to go off of with the time he's spent with Jason thus far and the last thing he wants is or him to feel as though any of this is rushed or simply given to him because he asked for it. That's not why he's doing this. It's because he does, truly, want to.
The smile he wears is still warm and soft as he looks up to Jason from between those legs. Fingers move slow and careful along the front of his shirt, dipping down to slip beneath the hem of it and let the tips of his fingers ghost along warm skin then beneath the material. Barry hums softly, just watching Jason as he lets his fingers explore him underneath that shirt. ]
Want me to take this off?
[ He keeps his voice soft โ low. Eyes never really straying from the birthday boy's face as he draws little patterns across his skin beneath his shirt, occasionally letting them drop to the waistband of those pants. ]
lol sorry for this jason dump of emotions in the middle of sexy tiems xD
It's an odd thing for him to ask for, really, but right now it's all he wants. With Barry it's all he wants. His boyfriend isn't wrong, though. It's fucking scary, and a lot to think about, so he doesn't really think about it. He just lets himself feel it, which is something he's better at. Better at, because he feels things so intensely, so readily. Doesn't mean that's always good. In this case, though, it very much is.
Feeling things has always been too much for Jason in general, but if he can focus it, funnel it into something good instead of fucked up and angry, then... there's this.
Jason knows he doesn't deserve it. He doesn't deserve a lot of what he has, but he's a survivor, and sometimes that means taking things he doesn't deserve, otherwise what'll happen to him? He'll waste away. He doesn't want to waste away. He wants to fit. He wants to belong. He wants to be loved. He sure as shit knows he's terrible at loving back, but... he's trying. He's trying so hard.
Barry makes it so much easier.
Jason can't take his fiery blue eyes off of Barry, sucking his lower lip into his mouth as the other man's hands travel up under his shirt, along his skin. He nods, lifting his hands from Barry's shoulders so he can take his shirt off, a soft smile on his face at the way Barry asks. Such a damn turn on. ]
[ Despite his being a speedster, Barry finds soft and slow moments like these to be just as favored and enjoyable. Taking the time to savor the moment and all the little sounds and expressions Jason both makes and gives to him... there's nothing else like that. Nothing he can find within the speed force or the handful of seconds life can often ends up being to him. To purposefully slow down and take pleasure in all the little things in life... he'd needed more of that in his life in a way he hadn't quite managed to find on his own. With Jason, however, he comes to see he can find those moments โ wants to have them more and more.
When the ok is given in removing his shirt, Barry smiles with a slow nod and goes about helping him out of it. There's no rush to peel it off, bunch it up, and throw it off to the side. Rather, he takes his time in how he pulls it up over Jason's head and peels the thing off him, chuckling softly at the way it messes his hair up a bit. Oops. Then again, it sort of leaves him looking a lot cuter than he usually is and Barry finds he can't bring himself to fix it up. Not yet at least.
Instead, he hums a little hum of amusement and leans in to kiss him. Slow. Soft. Just as Jason wants all of this to be.
He keeps there between those legs, hands smoothing their way slowly up and down those thighs he loves to be between. Letting his lips brush over Jason's in a kiss that, in some ways, never feels as if it's going to end, but when it does, it's with a gentle nip to his lower one, Barry huffing the softest of laughs as he bumps his forehead to Jason's.
It's in that quiet there that Barry finds himself just staring to Jason, hands still slow in their movements along his thighs, but brown eyes never seeming to stray from those blue ones and he lets go of a breath he hasn't even realized he's been holding until now. ]
Hey... [ The word barely a whisper there so close against those lips, Barry lets his gaze linger on Jason for a beat of a heart before he's smiling. Soft and warm. ] ...I kinda love you.
[ A gentle confession whispered feather-soft, he noses at Jason with an at first shy expression before it warms to something more hopeful and tender. Licking over his lips, he chuckles. Quiet. A brief duck of his head before he's pressing a kiss to the sharp edge of Jason's jaw, looking up to him through dark lashes. ]
[ All of this started out with some kind of practice- for the both of them really. How to slow down, how to be in the moment, how to live in what's around them instead of rushing through it to get to the next thing. He wasn't sure he could help Barry with any of it, if he's being honest about it, but throwing himself out there was the best he could do.
Somehow he made it work, and he still can't believe it. He's pretty sure it was all Barry that made this work anyway, and he somehow just slotted himself into the right parts, the right cracks.
There are still so many ways he can slip out, unravel, dislodge. But lately? He hasn't exactly been feeling that way. He feels like maybe this fits. It actually fits somehow, with someone he never would have dreamed of fitting with.
It's so good, the way Barry isn't in a rush and takes his time, even with lifting Jason's shirt off of him. He smiles when Barry chuckles at him, shaking his head slightly as his own hands fall back down into Barry's hair, messing it up a little too. Only fair, and Barry looks just as fucking cute with messy hair as he does.
He could kiss Barry like this for hours, drawing out each lick of lips, each taste into that mouth of his. None of this feels forced, or like something Barry is just giving him because Jason asked him for it. It feels more real than anything he's ever had before, and Jason wants to tell him that somehow, but he doesn't know how. As their foreheads bump together, Jason's hands slide to Barry's face, eyes locked with his.
Jason wants to take this moment in. Everything quiet and soft and gentle about it. He feels like he might never have this again, and there's this kind of warmth laced with pain that washes over him. He wants this. He wants it so badly. He doesn't want to think that he might never have it again after this moment. It's such a stupid thought in the midst of this, because Barry is with him, he wants him, he's here with him.
And then.
And then those words.
They catch Jason so off guard that the uncertainty flickers hard in his eyes before he can even think to stop it. Before he can think to close it all off.
He shifts his face away from Barry's tender kisses, and yet his fingers curl a little harder in the other man's hair, because... because... he doesn't want Barry to pull away, even if he has to pull away from Barry.]
What do you mean?
[ what a fucking stupid question. he's such a goddamn idiot. ]
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Want you just like this. Just like... fuck, you're so sweet.
[Just like Barry, Jason starts kissing him all over. Lips, jaw, down his neck for a moment before he lifts his head to look at his fucking incredible boyfriend.
Balloons and food are pretty damn cool, but only cause it's Barry. he's the best part of all this.]
Always hungry, babe. For you. But also for that cupcake. And then I want you to gimme a tour cause this place is dope as fuck.
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Letting fingers brush down the side of the other's neck, he smiles as he wraps an arm around his waist and keeps him close for just a little longer. ]
Unwrap me later, ok?
[ Stealing a quick but heated kiss, Barry bumps his nose against Jason's before he laughs and pulls back โ food is to be had after all. So, grabbing hold of Jason's hand, he tugs him over to the table with the snacks on it and grabs the small plate with the lion cupcake on it, the flame of the candle flickering away.
Turning some, he holds the plate out towards Jason and smiles, gesturing to the candle with a nod of his head. ]
Make a wish.
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But here, in this moment, he feels it. He belongs here, he belongs with Barry. God, he fucking loves being Robin too and he'd do anything to stay with Bruce, but this... this is different, and Jason is excited at the thought that maybe this can be it for him too.]
Better fuckin' believe I'm gonna unwrap you later.
[ He's all in when it comes to the heated kiss, and then he laughs and pulls back too, biting at his lower lip as he heads to the table with Barry, looking at all the snacks and the lion cupcake. it's a detail that he kinda adores- not that he's big on astrology or whatever, but he remembers when the strippers his uncle used to hang out with would try to get him all into it. It's cute, and so Barry, and he loves it.
A Birthday wish... It's such a stupid, childish thing, but he doesn't care right now. This is how Barry makes him feel, and he knows what it's going to be. Closing his eyes, he makes his wish, then opens them up again and blows the candle out, a soft smile on his face afterwards. ]
Think it'll come true?
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Yeah. Of course it will.
[ And he's so earnest and honest in the way he both smiles and says that.
With a kiss stolen from those lips, he scoops a fingerful of frosting and wipes it on Jason's nose, Barry laughing a little before he leans in to lick it off. ]
Have some food now, ok?
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He doesn't think he's ever smiles this much in his entire life, and it doesn't stop even as Barry kisses him again. Then dissolves into laughter as he gets frosting wiped on his nose and licked off. ]
Hey, as I fucking recall, you were supposed to be the one covered in frosting.
[ he plucks the candle out and takes a bite of the cupcake because obviously that's what needs to be eaten first, before holding it out for Barry to take a bite too. ]
Mmm damn, thas good.
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Y'know, I still can be.
[ Even as he speaks, he can't help but laugh, leaning in to take a generous bite of the cupcake because, well, he likes food and can't help himself, ok? Either way, he licks over his lips with that still bright smile before he makes his way over to where he keeps his fridge. ]
I also forgot to offer drinks. What do you want? I have, uh... [ Taking a moment to look through the fridge, he taps his fingers along the side of the door. ] ...water? A lot of water โ oh. Doubleshot over ice? Got that, too.
[ He... maybe should have checked to stock this first. ]
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Definitely happening at some point. Are you a food in bed kinda person? I bet you are.
[snackhole boyfriend tbh. Jason is here for it. Between the two of them they're almost done with the cupcake in one go, and Jason takes another bite but also grabs a handful of chips as he follows after Barry, looking around. He can't believe how many balloons there are. It's magical.]
Water's good. You gonna gimme a tour? This place is dope as fuck. Like damn, it's unreal.
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Grabbing a water for Jason, he blinks over to him before he huffs a laugh at the description of his place. Honestly, he likes a lot himself. It's just... something of his and pretty much has everything that he needs. So for Jason to find it "dope as fuck" and not be all "why the hell are you living in a train yard???" he appreciates it.
Handing the water bottle over, he closes the fridge door and puffs his cheeks for a moment. ]
Uh... sure? We can do that โ if you'll just follow me.
[ Nodding his head, he grins as he makes his way over to his "work area" you could say. ]
So this is where I sit and work โ sometimes eat. Just, you know, hang out I guess. [ To say the least. However, pointing over yonder, ] Bedroom kinda area is thataway, bathroom close by, too. Lots of... open space to, you know, run around in or whatever.
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He snags the water and stick it under his arm, offering Barry his last bite of cupcake before he follows him around the place, trying to take in every last, very cool detail.]
Wait, wait you gotta show me more of your bedroom.
[Even if they might get stuck there? Maybe that's fine though? They have time, and Jason's feeling some kinda way right now.]
Do you run around in here? Like test out your suit and stuff?
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You really eager to unwrap your present, huh?
[ Teasing, he nods though and runs the tips of his fingers over his lips as he glances around. ]
Yeah, sometimes. I mean โ I have a pretty good handle on it now, but. It's a lot better to do that outside with more space, you know?
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I'm not super known for being patient.
[ he smirks, but it's cool. he really is good with anything they do. he's already completely swept off his feat. his kinda riding this really good high right now. ]
Yeah, makes sense. So cool that you can go anywhere you want. But if I lived in this place? I'd never go anywhere, it's so cool.
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[ He's teasing as he saunters his way on up to the other, grin on his lips, arms looping around that waist. Keeping Jason nice and close against him as he cocks his head to the side, that look of amusement still there on his face. ]
Because as cool as this place is... kinda think being with you is cooler.
[ Yeah he sounds like a dork and yeah he's sure chuckling a little at himself for it. But he also doesn't really care because... Jason is here. In his place and they have... well, not all the time in the world, but. Enough. At least for now and Barry intends to make the most of it. ]
So what do you wanna do?
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[ Jason replies easily, more than happy to lean right into Barry when his arms loop around him. He bites at his lip, just watching him with this completely aroused look on his face. Barry's a dork, and Jason loves it. It does things to him.
He pulls his boyfriend in a little closer as he slides his arms around his shoulder, hips pressing forward casually. ]
Kinda wanna do you right now. Or you do me. I'm really good either way, as long as you give me a personal tour of your bed.
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[ Because he can and he will... but not before sinking teeth into that bottom lip of his and deciding to be a little... mischievous what with those hips pressing into his so blatantly and all. So, leaning in, he hums as he drags his lips across Jason's cheek and along his temple, smiling as hands hold tight to the small of his back. ]
You're the birthday boy today. You get to have me however you want. If you want me on my knees sucking you off until you can't come anymore, I will. If you wanna fuck my face and feed me your cum until I can't take anymore, you can. If you wanna have my on my hands and knees and see how good I take your cock from behind, I can do that as many times as you'd like.
[ Grinning against the shell of Jason's ear, he smooths his hands down the other's sides and nips at his ear then, pulling back with an All Too Innocent look on his face. ]
Or I can do any of those things to you. It's your call. You're in charge. I'm here to please you in every way you want.
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But holy fuck, Barry doesn't stop there, and Jason is a little embarrassed at how hard he gets from those words alone.
But even more so, when he thinks about what he really wants, and it isn't exactly any of those things. Not just yet, anyways.
He doesn't mean to shift his hips away, or let his gaze slide over to the rack of books rather than at Barry, or let his fingers curl into fists instead of letting them splay out against Barry's back. But there's still this whole fight or flight thing inside of him, and the way he swears he'd never want to trust anyone like this, and yet here he is. ]
Maybe... something softer.
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There isn't a look of surprise or disappointment on his face when Jason suggests something softer. Rather, Barry pulls back just enough to be able to smile down to him and run a palm over his cheek, cradling his face as softly as Jason wants soft for his birthday. ]
We can do softer.
[ Letting the pad of his thumb brush under Jason's eye, he leans in to brush a tender kiss over those lips with the sweetest of hums on them. ]
We can do anything you want. [ A beat, he noses Jason. ] I can let you feel how much you mean to me.
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He feels a little less of kilter when Barry agrees to it, and he can see that it's a genuine thing. Barry isn't rolling his eyes at his weak ass shit, or thinking he's like, losing his touch, or whatever.
In any other situation he might feel a little pathetic, which would probably lead to anger, but that's not the case here. Barry is already so soft with him- even before this, he realizes- and he relaxes back against him, fingers uncurling into the other man's hair. ]
Show me. That's what I wanna feel.
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The smile he wears is that โ soft and he hums just the same when those fingers find themselves in his hair, arms holding right around that waist of his. ]
I'll show you then. [ Brushing the words against those lips. ] I'll make you feel it all, baby.
[ That's about all that Barry plans to say before he's gripping tight to Jason and, using a bit of his quick reflexes to add a bit of strength to his movements, he hoists Jason up against him, intending to carry him where Jason can slot and wrap his legs around his waist. ]
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He feels warm and soft at Barry's words, already feeling so into it. When does he not though, when it comes to Barry.
Jason's surprised when Barry hoists him up so easily, a soft laugh breathed out against Barry's lips as he moves his legs around his waist. ]
New moves, I like it.
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[ Smiling right back against those lips, Barry makes sure he has a tight enough hold on Jason before he starts to walk, carrying his boyfriend the birthday boy in the direction of his room โ which, by the way, is very much Out In The Open given the layout of the warehouse sort of loft life he lives.
He peppers Jason's face and neck in soft little kisses as he maneuvers around a couple things for his bed, the trip to it not all that long. When he's there, he gently drops Jason down on the edge of the bed and smiles warmly as he just stands there in front of him, letting hands softly cup the sides of his neck. ]
Tell me if it's ever too much for you, ok?
[ Words soft but with an understanding that this may be overwhelming, in a way, to Jason and the last thing he wants is for him to feel as if he's suffocating from something that he intends to be the physical show of how much he means to him.
Either way, he lets his hands smooth down the sides of that neck and brush over the front of Jason's shirt, Barry dropping down to his knees to slot himself there between Jason's legs, kissing at his neck and chest even with clothes still on. ]
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[ Maybe not here here exactly, but here with Barry in every other way. This is something he desperately wants to hold on to, despite how much he knows he fucks things up. He feels like he's getting better at it though, at least with Barry.
Jason tightens his legs around Barry as he starts to move, letting him leave all those kisses against his skin. It all makes him smile. He can't stop smiling, actually.
He figures Barry's room is all out in the open, and that's pretty cool too. Not like they have to lock doors here like he's used to doing in the manor. They have all the privacy they want here. It helps to make Jason even more comfortable with what he's asked for, because this really is just them.
He looks up at Barry when he's set down on the bed, his hands sliding to the other man's waist, just up under his shirt. The fact that Barry even realizes that even though Jason asked for it, it might still be overwhelming... it means a lot to Jason, and he knows he made the right decision with all of this. ]
I will.
[ Jason doesn't take his eyes off Barry as he moves down to his knees between his legs, his own hands sliding up along his shoulders, caressing up along his neck. ]
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The smile he wears is still warm and soft as he looks up to Jason from between those legs. Fingers move slow and careful along the front of his shirt, dipping down to slip beneath the hem of it and let the tips of his fingers ghost along warm skin then beneath the material. Barry hums softly, just watching Jason as he lets his fingers explore him underneath that shirt. ]
Want me to take this off?
[ He keeps his voice soft โ low. Eyes never really straying from the birthday boy's face as he draws little patterns across his skin beneath his shirt, occasionally letting them drop to the waistband of those pants. ]
lol sorry for this jason dump of emotions in the middle of sexy tiems xD
It's an odd thing for him to ask for, really, but right now it's all he wants. With Barry it's all he wants. His boyfriend isn't wrong, though. It's fucking scary, and a lot to think about, so he doesn't really think about it. He just lets himself feel it, which is something he's better at. Better at, because he feels things so intensely, so readily. Doesn't mean that's always good. In this case, though, it very much is.
Feeling things has always been too much for Jason in general, but if he can focus it, funnel it into something good instead of fucked up and angry, then... there's this.
Jason knows he doesn't deserve it. He doesn't deserve a lot of what he has, but he's a survivor, and sometimes that means taking things he doesn't deserve, otherwise what'll happen to him? He'll waste away. He doesn't want to waste away. He wants to fit. He wants to belong. He wants to be loved. He sure as shit knows he's terrible at loving back, but... he's trying. He's trying so hard.
Barry makes it so much easier.
Jason can't take his fiery blue eyes off of Barry, sucking his lower lip into his mouth as the other man's hands travel up under his shirt, along his skin. He nods, lifting his hands from Barry's shoulders so he can take his shirt off, a soft smile on his face at the way Barry asks. Such a damn turn on. ]
You can take it off.
i'm just gonna have to raise you one
When the ok is given in removing his shirt, Barry smiles with a slow nod and goes about helping him out of it. There's no rush to peel it off, bunch it up, and throw it off to the side. Rather, he takes his time in how he pulls it up over Jason's head and peels the thing off him, chuckling softly at the way it messes his hair up a bit. Oops. Then again, it sort of leaves him looking a lot cuter than he usually is and Barry finds he can't bring himself to fix it up. Not yet at least.
Instead, he hums a little hum of amusement and leans in to kiss him. Slow. Soft. Just as Jason wants all of this to be.
He keeps there between those legs, hands smoothing their way slowly up and down those thighs he loves to be between. Letting his lips brush over Jason's in a kiss that, in some ways, never feels as if it's going to end, but when it does, it's with a gentle nip to his lower one, Barry huffing the softest of laughs as he bumps his forehead to Jason's.
It's in that quiet there that Barry finds himself just staring to Jason, hands still slow in their movements along his thighs, but brown eyes never seeming to stray from those blue ones and he lets go of a breath he hasn't even realized he's been holding until now. ]
Hey... [ The word barely a whisper there so close against those lips, Barry lets his gaze linger on Jason for a beat of a heart before he's smiling. Soft and warm. ] ...I kinda love you.
[ A gentle confession whispered feather-soft, he noses at Jason with an at first shy expression before it warms to something more hopeful and tender. Licking over his lips, he chuckles. Quiet. A brief duck of his head before he's pressing a kiss to the sharp edge of Jason's jaw, looking up to him through dark lashes. ]
If that's ok for me to say.
JESUUUSSS. okay yeah, you win?? maybe??
Somehow he made it work, and he still can't believe it. He's pretty sure it was all Barry that made this work anyway, and he somehow just slotted himself into the right parts, the right cracks.
There are still so many ways he can slip out, unravel, dislodge. But lately? He hasn't exactly been feeling that way. He feels like maybe this fits. It actually fits somehow, with someone he never would have dreamed of fitting with.
It's so good, the way Barry isn't in a rush and takes his time, even with lifting Jason's shirt off of him. He smiles when Barry chuckles at him, shaking his head slightly as his own hands fall back down into Barry's hair, messing it up a little too. Only fair, and Barry looks just as fucking cute with messy hair as he does.
He could kiss Barry like this for hours, drawing out each lick of lips, each taste into that mouth of his. None of this feels forced, or like something Barry is just giving him because Jason asked him for it. It feels more real than anything he's ever had before, and Jason wants to tell him that somehow, but he doesn't know how. As their foreheads bump together, Jason's hands slide to Barry's face, eyes locked with his.
Jason wants to take this moment in. Everything quiet and soft and gentle about it. He feels like he might never have this again, and there's this kind of warmth laced with pain that washes over him. He wants this. He wants it so badly. He doesn't want to think that he might never have it again after this moment. It's such a stupid thought in the midst of this, because Barry is with him, he wants him, he's here with him.
And then.
And then those words.
They catch Jason so off guard that the uncertainty flickers hard in his eyes before he can even think to stop it. Before he can think to close it all off.
He shifts his face away from Barry's tender kisses, and yet his fingers curl a little harder in the other man's hair, because... because... he doesn't want Barry to pull away, even if he has to pull away from Barry.]
What do you mean?
[ what a fucking stupid question. he's such a goddamn idiot. ]
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dw cockblocking us again, i see ๐ค
smh dw
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