[ For a fraction of a second, Barry wonders if he's crossed some invisible line he shouldn't have โ if he's possibly ruined this slow and soft moment between them. Because Jason seems confused at first and then it seems as though he's wanting to pull away... yet he grips so tight to his hair that Barry can't help but wonder if it's more a means to keep himself grounded here. To not slip or run away as some part of him might be telling him to.
So he's quiet as he stares to Jason, hands coming to still on those thighs and, instead, lets the pads of his thumbs rub slow and gentle circles there, keeping himself connected to Jason ins some physical way. ]
I... mean I kinda love you.
[ A beat, he licks over his lips, laughter just barely leaving his lips as he ducks his head. ]
That I'm kinda in love with you.
[ He lets himself look up to Jason then, feeling he both needs and deserves that so as not to think that Barry himself is shrinking away. Rather, he smiles, still warm, eyes as soft as they've ever really been.
Coming to lean against one of those legs, he hums a bit as his gaze drops, watching the way his thumb continues to rub circles on the inside of that thigh before he's biting the inside of his cheek in thought and he's looking back up to Jason. Eyes still warmly soft. ]
I think I have been for awhile now and I just... wanted to tell you.
[ Jason's unsteady gaze shifts to those hands, brow still furrowed slightly as he tries to even it out and not show so much goddamn emotion on his face. He fails, really, because he always does. He's a shithead who wears his heart on his sleeve, and it never works out for him. He's such a fucking idiot.
He almost laughs because he doesn't even know what he's berating himself for right now. It's just a thing he falls back to so naturally, like some fucked up defense mechanism.
Except this time he has a legit anchor to hold on to. Something to ground him. The caustic words he wants to throw at Barry to make him stop saying such nice things to him just aren't there, drifting away in the spaces between the two of them, that Jason's been so sure would be filled with poison and dirt, and...
and this is what he's wanted to say. The feelings and expressions, and the way this is more real than anything he's ever had before. This is what he's wanted to say, but didn't know how. Maybe didn't even feel like he was worthy enough to say it.
Barry doesn't pull back or recoil at his uncertainty. He keeps pushing on, pushing forward, looking at Jason like this isn't something he's going to back away from, no matter what kinda shit Jason pulls, and Jason knows. He knows this is what he's been trying to figure out. ]
I love you too.
[ He says firmly, before letting out a very shaky breath. Fuck. Fuck. His eyes find Barry's again after he realizes he's looked away. He doesn't want to be away. He wants this. ]
I'm in love with you too.
[ It's the scariest thing he's ever said in his entire life. ]
[ With wanting to indulge in soft and slow for a moment between them, this particular slow seems to stretch on in ways that could possibly become uncomfortable.
That is, if Barry didn't have the utmost faith in Jason and this moment right here between them.
Because Jason finally comes to speak and Barry listens. Completely. Smile slowly tugging at the corners of his lips in a way that becomes more than soft but bright and blinding in a way that only Barry can somehow seem to do. Jason's words touch him a way that makes him feel lighter and even if he wanted to, he can't wipe that smile off his face.
Jason feels the same. He's said so himself and Barry just feels... happy. So very happy.
Wanting to shower Jason in that happiness, he leans up and kisses him, humming brightly against his lips as he does so and he nearly pushes the birthday boy back against the bed before he comes to pull back, licking over his lips as he does. ]
I wanted to tell you before I gave you this.
[ It's then that he reaches under the bed for a small box that looks the sort to typically hold jewelry in it what with being crushed velvet and black. Holding it out for Jason โ because it's for him โ he nods, gesturing for him to open it. ]
I thought it might... make more sense if I told you.
[ Because inside the crushed velvet box and resting on a black satin cushion is a necklace with the letter R and a lightning bolt through it. Not too reminiscent of their respective symbols in the sense of being carbon copies laced together, but. Familiar enough in their own way. At least between the two of them. ]
[ Why Barry has so much faith in him... Jason doesn't get it. It doesn't make sense, and yet... maybe that's what this is. Nothing about the two of them makes sense, and yet somehow it does, in every possible way.
When Jason admits how he feels, at first it feels like... it feels like falling, his stomach dropping out from under him. But Barry is there.
The slow that seems to stretch is filled with Barry's smiles, and kisses, and this sense of relief that overtakes that falling feeling like a goddamn waterfall of emotions. Good emotions, and Jason doesn't know why he's frowning. He doesn't know why he's sitting here acting like this is some kind of detrimental fault, when it's so good. It's happiness. Barry loves him.
Barry's in love with him, and it's happiness, and the feeling in his stomach dissipates, the tension in his shoulders uncurling, and his expression turns lighter, arms catching around Barry as he nearly pushes him back against the bed, laughing softly into the kiss. ]
There's more?
[ Jason looks at him incredulously, especially when Barry holds the box out to him. There's another confused look that passes over Jason's face, but it's not as intensely chaotic as it was before, because he takes the box from Barry and opens it up, and... Barry is really working hard to short circuit him, isn't he.
Jason lets out a soft breath, lips parted in surprise as he runs his fingers over the necklace. Their symbols, intertwined. Jason smiles, pressing his arms over his eyes because fuck. He's gonna lose his shit over here. ]
Fuck, Barry.
[ he laughs, his voice coming out a little watery, but he moves his arm, dragging it across his eyes, because he wants to look at Barry. this is too damn important. ]
[ Despite all his awkwardness at times, Barry's heart is a soft one, one that can easily be broken or shattered yet filled with an overflowing hope and care for others that are dear to him. There's times where he wonders if maybe he's too soft for this sort of gig. He's not a fighter by any means and if depowered, Jason could easily run laps around him in hand-to-hand combat. But that softness of his is also what makes him him. What allows him to be empathetic, almost, to others around him and seek to do whatever he can to help and take care of those who can't.
It allows him to be thoughtful in moments like these.
Fingers rub at his boyfriend's knees and he smiles as he watches his expression carefully. He hadn't been too worried that Jason wouldn't like it, but. He also hadn't wanted to assume anything and also it was why he felt the need to explain with a confession so as not to have Jason feeling confused or be one to sending mixed signals to him; they've already done that song and dance with miscommunication before.
So when Jason asks him to help him put it on, Barry smiles, warm and loving, and nods as he reaches up for the box and the piece of jewelry that's essentially them twined together. ]
Here, let me see.
[ Leaning up some, he unhooks the backing and drapes the necklace around Jason's bare chest, leaning over him as he locks the clasp in place at the nape of his neck, fingers gently stroking down a moment after. Pulling back, he adjusts it some against Jason's chest and smile as he goes back onto his knees, head tilting as he admires the piece.
Looking up then with those soft brown eyes, he smiles again. ]
[ Barry's softness is everything Jason wants. It's what he needs, so clearly, because nothing else in the world can get him to be just as soft like this. He didn't think he had it in him, didn't even think he should, but Barry's shown him a different way. Jason only hopes he doesn't break that heart of his, but he'll do everything he can not to.
It's hard to imagine that anyone could feel this way about him, though, but if there's one thing he isn't going to do, it's doubt his boyfriend. Of course he doesn't doubt him, when Barry is so fucking thoughtful, making him feel special in ways he's never felt before.
Jason runs his finger over the pendant once more, before he hands it over to Barry to let him help put it on. He smiles brightly when it's hooked around his neck, hanging down against his chest. It feels good.
He looks at Barry, just taking in the warm expression on his face for a moment before he leans in to kiss him, fingers brushing against his cheek.]
I'm never taking it off. I love it. I love you.
[ It's a little easier this time, and Jason follows it up with another kiss, deep and slow, wanting Barry to feel just how much he really does love him. ]
[ Hearing those words โ I love it. I love you. โ they're nothing Barry himself ever thought he'd hear from someone and with them coming from Jason, well. It's difficult for him not to smile like sunshine.
When kissed, he sighs. Happy. Drinking it up with just as much warmth and tenderness to it as Jason himself gives to him. It's so easy to, he thinks, and he also thinks Jason should give himself more credit for his worth and what he deserves in this life... from him.
Cradling the side of his face with a hand, Barry hums a pleased little sound against those lips and pulls back just enough to bump his forehead with his own, eyes fluttering open as that smile stays there on his lips. ]
I'd say this was a pretty good birthday then. If I got you something you're never going to take off.
[ The thing is, Jason loves hard too. When he can get himself there, and open himself up enough for it, he'll go in with his whole damn heart. Hell, he's pretty sure he's been in love with Barry for a while now- already wanted more with him than whatever hook up thing they might've originally planned.
He thought maybe the best he'd get was a date, but Barry trusted him and went with him, and now they have this.
Jason's happy, letting the warmth he feels push out any lingering doubt he might have about himself away, chasing all of Barry's smiles with more kisses. ]
Best birthday I've ever had.
[ People say that all the time, but for Jason it's true. This is the best anything he's ever had. ]
But just so you know, I've got something I hope you're always gonna take off too, though.
[ He grins, waggling an eyebrow at his boyfriend. ]
[ Much like his smile, the laughter that spills from his lips is like liquid sunshine, a crinkling to his eyes given to show just how happy he is in this moment here โ this moment with Jason. ]
Well I'd kinda hope you'd always like it to come off.
[ Running his tongue along his lower lip, he huffs a laugh and pulls back enough to be able to tug his own shirt off, pulling it up and over his shoulders, only to drop it down to the floor beside him. Still a little hairy on the chest there, muscles become taut across his arms as he leans on them, hands flat on either side of Jason there on the bed, Barry humming with a playful little grin on his lips as he stares to the other. Stares to his boyfriend. ]
Is it ok if we just stay in bed for a couple hours? I know I need to show you around, but... [ He chuckles softly, necking at Jason with little pecks of his lips. ] ...kinda want to not share you with the world for a little bit.
[ This may be corny as fuck, but Jason's pretty sure Barry's laugh is his favorite sound in the world. Shit, he's got it bad. So damn bad, but instead of having a meltdown over feeling that way, he likes it. He's happy for it. If he can make Barry laugh, smile like this all the time? Maybe he's not so bad. ]
I mean, it's all yours, really.
[ His hands move quickly to Barry's bare chest when his shirt comes off, wanting nothing more than to feel him under his fingers. He leans back to give Barry more room to move over him, hand sliding to his neck to brush his thumb along the spot just under his ear. ]
It's real fucking okay. Nothing I want more than that. As long as you're here with me, whatever we do is the perfect thing.
[ Jason feels the best kind of warmth at the thought of Barry wanting him here all to himself. That's what he wants too. Just the two of them, intertwined for as long as they want to be. ]
[ When Jason leans back, Barry crawls in after him, smile on his lips. Being with Jason like this is... perfect. In so many ways and he's so glad that he likes the gift โ that he feels the same. Nosing at him, he hums a little before he ducks his head down and kisses behind Jason's ear, a hand smoothing along the other's side. ]
You're the perfect thing to me.
[ Still wearing that smile, he pulls back just enough to look down to him, soft brown eyes searching his face before he lets that smile gently brighten some, leaning in to steal a tender kiss. It's slow โ much like all of this right here is and he takes his time in letting his lips brush over Jason's, hands roaming freely over warm skin and just wanting to touch and feel him like this beneath his fingertips. ]
[ For someone who once told him he feels like he moves through moments too quickly and was worried about missing them, Barry has gotten incredibly good at slowing down, at taking his time with every little thing and making each and every moment last.
That's what this feels like, with the way Barry's hands slide over his skin so slowly that it feels like he's trying to memorize every last bit of him. Jason likes it, he melts into it, letting his hands drag down Barry's chest in the same way, then up his back as the other settles over him.
There's a lot that Jason likes to do quick and dirty, but there's nothing like these slow kisses that make Jason's head feel fuzzy with want and being wanted. Barry's so good at making Jason feel wanted. ]
Mmmm my favorite thing. You always make me feel so fucking full. Just another thing about you I love.
[ He isn't going to stop with that now, he hopes Barry knows. The flood gates are open, and Jason is such a secret goddamn romantic, he won't ever stop saying it. ]
[ Everything about them in this moment is gross in a cute way and Barry can't even find it within him to really care. He loves it โ loves Jason and everything that they have right here and will continue to have because he really does believe they will. They've come this far together โ understand each other in ways some might fail to see or comprehend. But they do and Barry can't be without him in his life. Not anymore.
The smile he wears is proof enough of how much this all means to him โ how much Jason means to him and he leans in to nuzzle at the crook of his neck again before he slowly begins to trail warm, open-mouthed kisses down that very same neck. Taking his time, humming as he goes. ]
Don't get me wanting to flip you over and take you from behind, baby.
[ Words he warmly breathes against Jason's skin, letting the tips of his fingers run down to the waistband of those pants. ]
[ It's the grossest Jason has ever been, and he fucking loves it. Wouldn't trade it in for anything. It feels crazy that he has all these things he wants now. Being Robin, being with Barry... it's the best he's ever had. Maybe all those dark, shitty days will finally be over. He feels like he's on the top of the world.
Jason smiles, letting his head fall back a bit as Barry nuzzles at his neck. He loves that spot, and he loves the way Barry's lips never hesitate to travel across every bit of skin.
His own hands continue moving down to the small of his back, drawing small circles until they dip down into his pants, grabbing at what he can. Fuck. Barry's driving him crazy. ]
Soft doesn't mean it has to be slow.
[ Jason lifts his head to look at Barry, blue eyes much darker with want now, feeling so in this moment that he knows anything would be good. As long as he's here with Barry, any fucking thing in the world would be good. ]
Fuck me. Flip me around and fuck me if you want to. Whatever you want, I want it too. Come on, you know you want to.
[ Jason's already got his soft and slow, and he feels well and thoroughly loved and wanted. He has everything he wants right now, so the encouraging glint in his eyes is just as true as the slow smirk that crosses his face. ]
[ The sound he makes when he feels those hands dip into his pants... pleased and appreciative at the same time, if the grin on his lips is anything to go by.
But then he goes and says what he does and Barry just huffs a laugh before he groans a little in frustration, albeit playfully. His head drops down to Jason's shoulder, lips brushing over warm bare skin there before they start to trail their way down the front of that chest. Lower. Lower. A little more lower as fingers start to undo the front of those pants.
Pausing, he looks up to him from where he is and leans up a little to rest on an arm. ]
I thought you wanted me to make love to you... not fuck you deep into the mattress.
[ Despite his asking, it's done in a light and playful way as he noses at Jason, lips brushing over his top one for a semi-kiss. ]
Though I guess with you being the birthday boy, I should just do as you say since it's your day today, hm?
[ Fuck, that sound turns him on so much, his hardon pressing against his pants, everything just all of a sudden too tight. His hand push just a little deeper, grabbing at Barry's ass as much as he can before those damn pants get in the way.
It's actually kinda crazy how slow they can go when they want each other this much, and Jason rocks his hips up against his lips, wanting to get closer, wanting Barry to free him of his own pants. ]
I feel like... you can tell me how much you love me while you fuck me deep into the mattress, and that'll pretty much be the same thing.
[ Jason laughs, letting his head fall back. He feels so free, so good, so happy. He brings it back in for that kiss, though, chasing after it so he can kiss Barry deeply again. ]
We've got all day. We can do whatever we want. You can have me however you want me.
[ Fingers tug down the front of those pants and he slips a hand inside, palming Jason's cock through his underwear as he drops kiss after kiss after kiss along his neck and shoulder. Just enjoying him like this and all the little sounds and movements he makes underneath him. Seeing how the necklace looks resting between Jason's collarbones, Barry finds himself smiling a little more warmly as he strokes the tips of his fingers across the face of it, leaning down to kiss around it. Slow. Soft. Sensual.
Pulling back, he watches Jason's face as he continues to palm him through his underwear, humming a little at how good it feels to have him so hard against his hand, knowing how bad he wants it. ]
How about I take you just like this then? So you can see how good you make me feel.
[ Jason lets out a slow, soft moan when Barry's hand presses against his cock, his body rocking up just a little to meet him there, hands still on his ass, squeezing at him just as slowly.
Barry's gonna drive him crazy with all these kisses, but it feels good to be this cared for. He thought maybe it would be overwhelming, but it isn't. He's feeling so incredibly good.
Jason smiles warmly when he kisses around the pendant so lovingly, his eyes bright and focused on Barry, but that hand of his rubbing at him is real distracting, and Jason bites at his lip, letting out another soft groan. ]
Yeah, baby. Wanna watch you. Love watching you. We can take it slow.
[ Barry can take it any way he wants to, as long as he's inside of him. Kinda of amazing though that Barry is the one getting him to slow down now- Jason can't help how eager he is for it, though. There are a lot of feelings bubbling up inside of him and he's finally getting the chance to let them out. ]
[ With the way Barry zips away from Jason suddenly, it's not even a full second before he's right back on top of him, hand down his pants and stroking him through his underwear again. In his other hand, however, is a bottle of lube that he holds up with a smile on his lips. Always needed, after all.
As he grips the bottle tight with his fingers, he starts to help Jason out of those pants, dragging them down slender legs and dropping off to the floor behind them. His underwear is next to go, Barry pressing a kiss to the other's hip before he's discarding those somewhere to the floor as well and fingers slip between those legs to press and tease over that eager little hole of his. ]
How โ I mean... [ Lips press against Jason's stomach, brown eyes flicking up to him as he continues to stroke that hole. ] ...are there things you've ever been curious about or have wanted to do?
[ Rolling his cheek to Jason's stomach, he presses the pad of his thumb at that hole and rubs slow circles there... while letting his thumb vibrate with how quick he moves his hand. ]
Like do you ever want to be handcuffed or blindfolded or have something that isn't my cock shoved up here?
[ Jason can only tell that Barry was away, because he's suddenly there with a bottle of lube, and it makes him laugh, warm in his chest. The perks of having a super speed boyfriend. There are so many perks when it comes to Barry.
He lifts his hips, helping to push his pants down, glad to finally be rid of them, and he's glad the underwear comes next, wasting no time between them. Jason's definitely eager as fuck, letting out a soft and happy fuck when those fingers are between his legs, rubbing at him.
He lets his hands slide over Barry's bare shoulders, up to his neck, one hand into his hair, but he tilts his head a little so he can get a better look at him. He opens his mouth to answer, but then Barry does that thing with his hand and Jason's head presses back against the mattress, letting out soft, breathy pants.]
Fuck... um... I've never really... There's no one I've really trusted enough to do any of that shit with so I've never really thought about it... fuck, that feels good.
[ Honestly though, who even needs a sex toy when Barry's already got such a skill? ]
[ He keeps a certain level of focus about him as he teases Jason's hole with his thumb, knowing how shattering his touch can be. Literally shattering his boyfriend's ass is not the sort of thing he's interested in having happen, so. Slight focus it is.
Thankfully, Barry is a bit of a multitasker and as he continues to massage that eager hole with his vibrating thumb, he smiles as he watches the way Jason reacts to it โ listens to the words he gives him through the pleasure he's already feeling. ]
You'd let me stretch you open with a toy and fuck you with it? Let me come inside you and then plug you up for a couple hours with my load inside you? Well that's good to know.
[ Leaning in, he presses another kiss to a hip, pulling his thumb away to slick his fingers with the lube he'd brought over, warming it up some before he presses that thumb back to that hole. ]
But you're always good. [ He softly praises, pressing that thumb inside his hole. ] You're always a good boy.
[ It's a good thing Jason doesn't really think about what that kind of vibration would do- though he'd likely just laugh his ass off about it more than anything. There's not much that would ruin the mood, or so he likes to think.
Thank god Barry's a multitasker though, because it feels so damn good already. If that's how those vibrations feel between his legs, maybe other toys would feel good too. ]
When you put it like that.... fuck, think that would drive me crazy. But yeah... fuck, yeah. Feeling you inside me for that long.... yeah, I'd be into that.
[ It would be distracting for sure, but wouldn't that make it all the better? It's funny, he's never really thought of himself and inexperienced before, but when it comes to things he's curious about or wants to try, he really just doesn't know.
He wonders if that's weird for Barry, but he doesn't think anything more about it because it's those words that get him the most, and the way Barry's thumb pushes in so carefully as he says them. Jason drops his legs open a little more, before he lifts one up to slide against the other's side.]
Wanna be good for you. Wanna make you feel good too.
[ Words he softly offers in encouragement as he slips his thumb out of that hole and, instead, replaces it with a long finger, rubbing him from the inside in slow steady strokes. ]
Not just like this. But just being you... being here with me. I feel happy. Really happy.
[ Despite the fact that he's slowly fingerfucking the other, Barry smiles sweetly down to him because of how much he means those words โ how much he means that praise he offers him in how good he is. Both like this and with him. For the first time in he can't even remember how long now, he really does feel happy right down to his core and it's all because of Jason.
Leaning in, he presses a kiss to his chest, lips brushing over a nipple before he pulls back enough to look down to him โ to watch the faces Jason makes as he fingerfucks nice and slow but deep. Stretching that tight ring of muscle. ]
[ Barry pushing a finger in to stretch him feels good, but those words are what make him feel warm all over. This is what he wants and how he wants things to be. He's never felt like just being himself has ever been okay, but when he's with Barry he does.
Jason cards his fingers down Barry's face, gaze locked with his. He always feels like he's a mess of emotions, but right now everything feels clear. ]
I'm happy too. Never been like this before.
[ Jason keeps his fingers moving down Barry's face, thumbs brushing against his cheeks as he rocks his body a little more each time, pushing down onto those fingers. He doesn't mind if it's too tight, though. He wants to feel that stretch when Barry pushes into him. He likes that slightly overwhelming feeling. It makes him feel alive. ]
I always want you, baby. I need you. Make love to me, please.
[ The way Jason touches and moves beneath him is a sweetness all in itself to Barry and he adores him โ he adores Jason and how they are like this with each other. To think they've come as far as they have... it's a little surreal at times. Where Barry had almost been sure they'd be nothing more than that one random hookup that night and maybe pick it back up a couple times here and there if their paths ever crossed. Instead it's brought them to this moment right here and Barry wouldn't trade a single second of it for anything else in the world.
He really does believe that.
Gently, he withdraws those fingers stroking him from the inside and wipes them down on the sheets, pumping his own cock with a bit more of that lube just to slick him up nice and good, looking down to Jason as he slots himself between those legs a little better. ]
I'll always make love to you, baby.
[ A gentle promise he drops from his lips, Barry kisses Jason slow and sweet as he shifts between those legs, pushing them back just a little bit, cock nudging at that stretched little hole, and slowly starts to sink himself inside. Only stopping when Jason has taken as much of him as he can. ]
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So he's quiet as he stares to Jason, hands coming to still on those thighs and, instead, lets the pads of his thumbs rub slow and gentle circles there, keeping himself connected to Jason ins some physical way. ]
I... mean I kinda love you.
[ A beat, he licks over his lips, laughter just barely leaving his lips as he ducks his head. ]
That I'm kinda in love with you.
[ He lets himself look up to Jason then, feeling he both needs and deserves that so as not to think that Barry himself is shrinking away. Rather, he smiles, still warm, eyes as soft as they've ever really been.
Coming to lean against one of those legs, he hums a bit as his gaze drops, watching the way his thumb continues to rub circles on the inside of that thigh before he's biting the inside of his cheek in thought and he's looking back up to Jason. Eyes still warmly soft. ]
I think I have been for awhile now and I just... wanted to tell you.
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He almost laughs because he doesn't even know what he's berating himself for right now. It's just a thing he falls back to so naturally, like some fucked up defense mechanism.
Except this time he has a legit anchor to hold on to. Something to ground him. The caustic words he wants to throw at Barry to make him stop saying such nice things to him just aren't there, drifting away in the spaces between the two of them, that Jason's been so sure would be filled with poison and dirt, and...
and this is what he's wanted to say. The feelings and expressions, and the way this is more real than anything he's ever had before. This is what he's wanted to say, but didn't know how. Maybe didn't even feel like he was worthy enough to say it.
Barry doesn't pull back or recoil at his uncertainty. He keeps pushing on, pushing forward, looking at Jason like this isn't something he's going to back away from, no matter what kinda shit Jason pulls, and Jason knows. He knows this is what he's been trying to figure out. ]
I love you too.
[ He says firmly, before letting out a very shaky breath. Fuck. Fuck. His eyes find Barry's again after he realizes he's looked away. He doesn't want to be away. He wants this. ]
I'm in love with you too.
[ It's the scariest thing he's ever said in his entire life. ]
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That is, if Barry didn't have the utmost faith in Jason and this moment right here between them.
Because Jason finally comes to speak and Barry listens. Completely. Smile slowly tugging at the corners of his lips in a way that becomes more than soft but bright and blinding in a way that only Barry can somehow seem to do. Jason's words touch him a way that makes him feel lighter and even if he wanted to, he can't wipe that smile off his face.
Jason feels the same. He's said so himself and Barry just feels... happy. So very happy.
Wanting to shower Jason in that happiness, he leans up and kisses him, humming brightly against his lips as he does so and he nearly pushes the birthday boy back against the bed before he comes to pull back, licking over his lips as he does. ]
I wanted to tell you before I gave you this.
[ It's then that he reaches under the bed for a small box that looks the sort to typically hold jewelry in it what with being crushed velvet and black. Holding it out for Jason โ because it's for him โ he nods, gesturing for him to open it. ]
I thought it might... make more sense if I told you.
[ Because inside the crushed velvet box and resting on a black satin cushion is a necklace with the letter R and a lightning bolt through it. Not too reminiscent of their respective symbols in the sense of being carbon copies laced together, but. Familiar enough in their own way. At least between the two of them. ]
Happy birthday.
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When Jason admits how he feels, at first it feels like... it feels like falling, his stomach dropping out from under him. But Barry is there.
The slow that seems to stretch is filled with Barry's smiles, and kisses, and this sense of relief that overtakes that falling feeling like a goddamn waterfall of emotions. Good emotions, and Jason doesn't know why he's frowning. He doesn't know why he's sitting here acting like this is some kind of detrimental fault, when it's so good. It's happiness. Barry loves him.
Barry's in love with him, and it's happiness, and the feeling in his stomach dissipates, the tension in his shoulders uncurling, and his expression turns lighter, arms catching around Barry as he nearly pushes him back against the bed, laughing softly into the kiss. ]
There's more?
[ Jason looks at him incredulously, especially when Barry holds the box out to him. There's another confused look that passes over Jason's face, but it's not as intensely chaotic as it was before, because he takes the box from Barry and opens it up, and... Barry is really working hard to short circuit him, isn't he.
Jason lets out a soft breath, lips parted in surprise as he runs his fingers over the necklace. Their symbols, intertwined. Jason smiles, pressing his arms over his eyes because fuck. He's gonna lose his shit over here. ]
Fuck, Barry.
[ he laughs, his voice coming out a little watery, but he moves his arm, dragging it across his eyes, because he wants to look at Barry. this is too damn important. ]
This is us, huh.
[The two of them. Together. ]
Will you help me put it on?
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It allows him to be thoughtful in moments like these.
Fingers rub at his boyfriend's knees and he smiles as he watches his expression carefully. He hadn't been too worried that Jason wouldn't like it, but. He also hadn't wanted to assume anything and also it was why he felt the need to explain with a confession so as not to have Jason feeling confused or be one to sending mixed signals to him; they've already done that song and dance with miscommunication before.
So when Jason asks him to help him put it on, Barry smiles, warm and loving, and nods as he reaches up for the box and the piece of jewelry that's essentially them twined together. ]
Here, let me see.
[ Leaning up some, he unhooks the backing and drapes the necklace around Jason's bare chest, leaning over him as he locks the clasp in place at the nape of his neck, fingers gently stroking down a moment after. Pulling back, he adjusts it some against Jason's chest and smile as he goes back onto his knees, head tilting as he admires the piece.
Looking up then with those soft brown eyes, he smiles again. ]
There. Right where it belongs.
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It's hard to imagine that anyone could feel this way about him, though, but if there's one thing he isn't going to do, it's doubt his boyfriend. Of course he doesn't doubt him, when Barry is so fucking thoughtful, making him feel special in ways he's never felt before.
Jason runs his finger over the pendant once more, before he hands it over to Barry to let him help put it on. He smiles brightly when it's hooked around his neck, hanging down against his chest. It feels good.
He looks at Barry, just taking in the warm expression on his face for a moment before he leans in to kiss him, fingers brushing against his cheek.]
I'm never taking it off. I love it. I love you.
[ It's a little easier this time, and Jason follows it up with another kiss, deep and slow, wanting Barry to feel just how much he really does love him. ]
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When kissed, he sighs. Happy. Drinking it up with just as much warmth and tenderness to it as Jason himself gives to him. It's so easy to, he thinks, and he also thinks Jason should give himself more credit for his worth and what he deserves in this life... from him.
Cradling the side of his face with a hand, Barry hums a pleased little sound against those lips and pulls back just enough to bump his forehead with his own, eyes fluttering open as that smile stays there on his lips. ]
I'd say this was a pretty good birthday then. If I got you something you're never going to take off.
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He thought maybe the best he'd get was a date, but Barry trusted him and went with him, and now they have this.
Jason's happy, letting the warmth he feels push out any lingering doubt he might have about himself away, chasing all of Barry's smiles with more kisses. ]
Best birthday I've ever had.
[ People say that all the time, but for Jason it's true. This is the best anything he's ever had. ]
But just so you know, I've got something I hope you're always gonna take off too, though.
[ He grins, waggling an eyebrow at his boyfriend. ]
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Well I'd kinda hope you'd always like it to come off.
[ Running his tongue along his lower lip, he huffs a laugh and pulls back enough to be able to tug his own shirt off, pulling it up and over his shoulders, only to drop it down to the floor beside him. Still a little hairy on the chest there, muscles become taut across his arms as he leans on them, hands flat on either side of Jason there on the bed, Barry humming with a playful little grin on his lips as he stares to the other. Stares to his boyfriend. ]
Is it ok if we just stay in bed for a couple hours? I know I need to show you around, but... [ He chuckles softly, necking at Jason with little pecks of his lips. ] ...kinda want to not share you with the world for a little bit.
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I mean, it's all yours, really.
[ His hands move quickly to Barry's bare chest when his shirt comes off, wanting nothing more than to feel him under his fingers. He leans back to give Barry more room to move over him, hand sliding to his neck to brush his thumb along the spot just under his ear. ]
It's real fucking okay. Nothing I want more than that. As long as you're here with me, whatever we do is the perfect thing.
[ Jason feels the best kind of warmth at the thought of Barry wanting him here all to himself. That's what he wants too. Just the two of them, intertwined for as long as they want to be. ]
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You're the perfect thing to me.
[ Still wearing that smile, he pulls back just enough to look down to him, soft brown eyes searching his face before he lets that smile gently brighten some, leaning in to steal a tender kiss. It's slow โ much like all of this right here is and he takes his time in letting his lips brush over Jason's, hands roaming freely over warm skin and just wanting to touch and feel him like this beneath his fingertips. ]
You feel even more perfect when I'm inside you.
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That's what this feels like, with the way Barry's hands slide over his skin so slowly that it feels like he's trying to memorize every last bit of him. Jason likes it, he melts into it, letting his hands drag down Barry's chest in the same way, then up his back as the other settles over him.
There's a lot that Jason likes to do quick and dirty, but there's nothing like these slow kisses that make Jason's head feel fuzzy with want and being wanted. Barry's so good at making Jason feel wanted. ]
Mmmm my favorite thing. You always make me feel so fucking full. Just another thing about you I love.
[ He isn't going to stop with that now, he hopes Barry knows. The flood gates are open, and Jason is such a secret goddamn romantic, he won't ever stop saying it. ]
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The smile he wears is proof enough of how much this all means to him โ how much Jason means to him and he leans in to nuzzle at the crook of his neck again before he slowly begins to trail warm, open-mouthed kisses down that very same neck. Taking his time, humming as he goes. ]
Don't get me wanting to flip you over and take you from behind, baby.
[ Words he warmly breathes against Jason's skin, letting the tips of his fingers run down to the waistband of those pants. ]
We're supposed to take it slow, remember?
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Jason smiles, letting his head fall back a bit as Barry nuzzles at his neck. He loves that spot, and he loves the way Barry's lips never hesitate to travel across every bit of skin.
His own hands continue moving down to the small of his back, drawing small circles until they dip down into his pants, grabbing at what he can. Fuck. Barry's driving him crazy. ]
Soft doesn't mean it has to be slow.
[ Jason lifts his head to look at Barry, blue eyes much darker with want now, feeling so in this moment that he knows anything would be good. As long as he's here with Barry, any fucking thing in the world would be good. ]
Fuck me. Flip me around and fuck me if you want to. Whatever you want, I want it too. Come on, you know you want to.
[ Jason's already got his soft and slow, and he feels well and thoroughly loved and wanted. He has everything he wants right now, so the encouraging glint in his eyes is just as true as the slow smirk that crosses his face. ]
I'm yours.
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But then he goes and says what he does and Barry just huffs a laugh before he groans a little in frustration, albeit playfully. His head drops down to Jason's shoulder, lips brushing over warm bare skin there before they start to trail their way down the front of that chest. Lower. Lower. A little more lower as fingers start to undo the front of those pants.
Pausing, he looks up to him from where he is and leans up a little to rest on an arm. ]
I thought you wanted me to make love to you... not fuck you deep into the mattress.
[ Despite his asking, it's done in a light and playful way as he noses at Jason, lips brushing over his top one for a semi-kiss. ]
Though I guess with you being the birthday boy, I should just do as you say since it's your day today, hm?
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It's actually kinda crazy how slow they can go when they want each other this much, and Jason rocks his hips up against his lips, wanting to get closer, wanting Barry to free him of his own pants. ]
I feel like... you can tell me how much you love me while you fuck me deep into the mattress, and that'll pretty much be the same thing.
[ Jason laughs, letting his head fall back. He feels so free, so good, so happy. He brings it back in for that kiss, though, chasing after it so he can kiss Barry deeply again. ]
We've got all day. We can do whatever we want. You can have me however you want me.
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Pulling back, he watches Jason's face as he continues to palm him through his underwear, humming a little at how good it feels to have him so hard against his hand, knowing how bad he wants it. ]
How about I take you just like this then? So you can see how good you make me feel.
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Barry's gonna drive him crazy with all these kisses, but it feels good to be this cared for. He thought maybe it would be overwhelming, but it isn't. He's feeling so incredibly good.
Jason smiles warmly when he kisses around the pendant so lovingly, his eyes bright and focused on Barry, but that hand of his rubbing at him is real distracting, and Jason bites at his lip, letting out another soft groan. ]
Yeah, baby. Wanna watch you. Love watching you. We can take it slow.
[ Barry can take it any way he wants to, as long as he's inside of him. Kinda of amazing though that Barry is the one getting him to slow down now- Jason can't help how eager he is for it, though. There are a lot of feelings bubbling up inside of him and he's finally getting the chance to let them out. ]
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As he grips the bottle tight with his fingers, he starts to help Jason out of those pants, dragging them down slender legs and dropping off to the floor behind them. His underwear is next to go, Barry pressing a kiss to the other's hip before he's discarding those somewhere to the floor as well and fingers slip between those legs to press and tease over that eager little hole of his. ]
How โ I mean... [ Lips press against Jason's stomach, brown eyes flicking up to him as he continues to stroke that hole. ] ...are there things you've ever been curious about or have wanted to do?
[ Rolling his cheek to Jason's stomach, he presses the pad of his thumb at that hole and rubs slow circles there... while letting his thumb vibrate with how quick he moves his hand. ]
Like do you ever want to be handcuffed or blindfolded or have something that isn't my cock shoved up here?
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He lifts his hips, helping to push his pants down, glad to finally be rid of them, and he's glad the underwear comes next, wasting no time between them. Jason's definitely eager as fuck, letting out a soft and happy fuck when those fingers are between his legs, rubbing at him.
He lets his hands slide over Barry's bare shoulders, up to his neck, one hand into his hair, but he tilts his head a little so he can get a better look at him. He opens his mouth to answer, but then Barry does that thing with his hand and Jason's head presses back against the mattress, letting out soft, breathy pants.]
Fuck... um... I've never really... There's no one I've really trusted enough to do any of that shit with so I've never really thought about it... fuck, that feels good.
[ Honestly though, who even needs a sex toy when Barry's already got such a skill? ]
I'd try new shit though... with you. I trust you.
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Thankfully, Barry is a bit of a multitasker and as he continues to massage that eager hole with his vibrating thumb, he smiles as he watches the way Jason reacts to it โ listens to the words he gives him through the pleasure he's already feeling. ]
You'd let me stretch you open with a toy and fuck you with it? Let me come inside you and then plug you up for a couple hours with my load inside you? Well that's good to know.
[ Leaning in, he presses another kiss to a hip, pulling his thumb away to slick his fingers with the lube he'd brought over, warming it up some before he presses that thumb back to that hole. ]
But you're always good. [ He softly praises, pressing that thumb inside his hole. ] You're always a good boy.
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Thank god Barry's a multitasker though, because it feels so damn good already. If that's how those vibrations feel between his legs, maybe other toys would feel good too. ]
When you put it like that.... fuck, think that would drive me crazy. But yeah... fuck, yeah. Feeling you inside me for that long.... yeah, I'd be into that.
[ It would be distracting for sure, but wouldn't that make it all the better? It's funny, he's never really thought of himself and inexperienced before, but when it comes to things he's curious about or wants to try, he really just doesn't know.
He wonders if that's weird for Barry, but he doesn't think anything more about it because it's those words that get him the most, and the way Barry's thumb pushes in so carefully as he says them. Jason drops his legs open a little more, before he lifts one up to slide against the other's side.]
Wanna be good for you. Wanna make you feel good too.
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[ Words he softly offers in encouragement as he slips his thumb out of that hole and, instead, replaces it with a long finger, rubbing him from the inside in slow steady strokes. ]
Not just like this. But just being you... being here with me. I feel happy. Really happy.
[ Despite the fact that he's slowly fingerfucking the other, Barry smiles sweetly down to him because of how much he means those words โ how much he means that praise he offers him in how good he is. Both like this and with him. For the first time in he can't even remember how long now, he really does feel happy right down to his core and it's all because of Jason.
Leaning in, he presses a kiss to his chest, lips brushing over a nipple before he pulls back enough to look down to him โ to watch the faces Jason makes as he fingerfucks nice and slow but deep. Stretching that tight ring of muscle. ]
You tell me when you want me, ok?
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Jason cards his fingers down Barry's face, gaze locked with his. He always feels like he's a mess of emotions, but right now everything feels clear. ]
I'm happy too. Never been like this before.
[ Jason keeps his fingers moving down Barry's face, thumbs brushing against his cheeks as he rocks his body a little more each time, pushing down onto those fingers. He doesn't mind if it's too tight, though. He wants to feel that stretch when Barry pushes into him. He likes that slightly overwhelming feeling. It makes him feel alive. ]
I always want you, baby. I need you. Make love to me, please.
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He really does believe that.
Gently, he withdraws those fingers stroking him from the inside and wipes them down on the sheets, pumping his own cock with a bit more of that lube just to slick him up nice and good, looking down to Jason as he slots himself between those legs a little better. ]
I'll always make love to you, baby.
[ A gentle promise he drops from his lips, Barry kisses Jason slow and sweet as he shifts between those legs, pushing them back just a little bit, cock nudging at that stretched little hole, and slowly starts to sink himself inside. Only stopping when Jason has taken as much of him as he can. ]
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dw cockblocking us again, i see ๐ค
smh dw
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