[ Jason likes the dirty talk. He doesn't expect it from Barry so that makes it all the better. He likes discovering different sides to people, especially in bed.
He comes hard for it being his second time in a short span of time, but it feels even better, even more intense than the first, his whole body thrumming with it. Barry's lips on him make him tingle, but nothing feels as good as when he can feel the other man spill his load inside of him too. He cries out again, tightening around Barry's length as much as he can, wanting to pull every last drop from him and keep it all inside himself.
Jason can feel his heart flutter at the praise, nuzzling into Barry's hair as his arms go around him to hold him close. He's never felt this close or completely full with anyone before, and he wants to hold on to it for as long as he can.]
Wanna be good for you. Always gonna be good for you.
[ he breathes out, then nudges barry's head up so he can give him a deep and sloppy kiss, still overflowing with need and want. ]
[ Gentle words of praise and reassurance that he feeds to Jason through kisses and brushes of lips over warm skin. When the other more or less demands his lips against his, he gives them over, letting Jason kiss him as hard and as many times as he wants.
At least until he comes to tip him back against the bed, dropping him down and shifting to tower over him. ]
Why does the life of crimefighting have to get in the way of moments like these?
[ He murmurs the words against the other's neck, a soft little whine given before the huff of laughter comes and he presses a few more kisses along Jason's shoulder and neck, just wanting to be close to and taste him however he can. ]
[ He wants to be good- always, but mostly for Barry. He wants to be what Barry needs, even if he isn't sure what any of this is, or could be. He knows that's a dangerous thing to want, especially for the two of them, but right now he doesn't really care.
He smiles when Barry drops them back onto the bed, kissing him for as long as he can until the two of them break apart. Jason doesn't let Barry go far though, moving his arms and legs up around him to hold him there. ]
Doesn't have to get in the way. We can do anything we want.
[ Jason's motto, pretty much, even though he knows he has responsibilities. He doesn't care much about any of that with Barry still deep inside of him, lips still moving all across his skin. ]
[ Between the two of them, someone has to be the responsible one and it looks like it's going to have to be Barry. Even if some part of him wishes he didn't have to be. ]
Maybe if we didn't have responsibilities, baby.
[ Words he brushes over Jason's cheek with a hum and a soft smile before he pulls back just enough to look down to Jason, still towering over him โ still deep inside him. ]
You make it difficult for me to want to say no to you.
[ Something he says a little playfully but, also quite serious in the gentle accusation made. Being here like this with Jason is... different. So different to anything he's ever had before and he wants to keep holding onto it for as long as he can. Granted, after All Of This, he likes to think that they're on better footing with one another what with having "made up" and all. Or at least, that's how it seems.
Shifting a bit, he hums as he buries his face in the crook of the other's neck and fingers gently brush along Jason's side, Barry just laying there atop him for a few more moments. ]
[ Jason wishes Barry didn't have to be the responsible one either, and he pouts a bit at the reminder, but it's hard to stay that way when Barry looks at him with that kinda smile. ]
I'll have to work on that then, to make it impossible.
[ Jason's lips curl into a small, mischievous smile, hands sliding up and down Barry's back. Everything is still hazy and good, and there's no rush just yet, right? Neither of them feel like they want to move anyway, especially with the way Barry is laying on top of him. ]
This mean we're gonna see each other more often? Like... all the time?
[ Barry huffs a quiet laugh into the crook of Jason's neck, pulling back then just enough to look down to him, head tilting, eyes soft like his smile. ]
You sure you're not going to get sick of me if we start doing that?
[ He's teasing, of course, and to show that he is, he steals a playful little kiss from those lips, humming as he does. Still close to him, still inside him, still not wanting to fully dislodge himself from the tangle of limbs he's managed to get himself wrapped up in. ]
You should come to Central City some time. You can stay at my place. I'll show you around.
[ Okay, so maybe all the time is pushing it, pushing for too much, so Jason shrugs, giving Barry a crooked grin, trying not to get embarrassed by his own eagerness for more. ]
Eh, who knows. Maybe I would.
[ He absolutely wouldn't, he's pretty damn sure of that, and he kisses Barry right back to show it, though he doesn't want to come on too strong. How could he ever get sick of this? It's really good that Barry is able to come see him whenever, but Jason wishes he could do the same. He'll have to figure this out somehow. ]
Yeah, I'd like that. I really want to, whenever you're up for it.
I mean โ as long as you don't mind that maybe I'll have to get up early for work a day or two? Vacation time is sort of not a thing with a new job. Unless you're fine with coming by for a weekend. Just, you know, depends on your own schedule and... reasonings with Bruce.
[ Because Jason can't just take off whenever he feels like it when Gotham needs Robin, right? That's just... not how it usually works...? He's not too sure on the whole "set up" Bruce might have over there and with Jason, but. He's not about to encourage the other to get into some sort of spat or trouble with the B-Man. Even if he'd love to see him.
Regardless, those are thoughts to be dealt with another day as, right now, he presses a kiss to Jason's forehead and rolls himself off the other only to lay there beside him on his back. A few deep breaths, Barry brings a hand up to his own head and cards fingers through the mess that it is. ]
I don't mind. I mean... it would be cool to spend the night together sometime, if you want.
[ Jason feels like he's kinda digging himself into a hole here, despite how wrapped around each other they are right now. But it's not as if Barry isn't telling him it's okay if stays over, right?
But then there's his schedule too. And yeah... Bruce. ]
I can take a few days off when B goes to do Justice League things... which... oh. Right. That includes you. So you wouldn't be available then either.
[ Right. Perfect. How do people do this shit?
The literal worst feeling in the world is when Barry finally pulls out and rolls off of him, but Jason rolls right with him, not wanting to part much as he lays on his side, half on top of Barry anyway, feeling the other man's cum start to leak out between his legs. He reaches up and follows the same bath as Barry's fingers, carding his own fingers through his hair.]
Didn't really like the fighting part, thought. I mean... was that even a fight, or was that just me being an asshole?
[ Yeah. He and Bruce are... on the... same team there. So. Not really that great a plan? At least when it comes to heading off because Bruce is doing Justice League things. The downside of being on a team with Batman when you're sleeping with his ward.
When Jason turns into him, however, Barry welcomes him with a soft little hum, arm draping around the other's shoulder as he holds him close and lays there, looking up to the ceiling in thought. ]
Maybe a bit of both. Though you were kind of an asshole, yeah.
[ Looking to him, he wears a playful little grin on his lips before he huffs a quiet laugh and bumps his head against Jason's. Clearly to show that he's gently teasing him there. ]
I'd like it if you could come out to my place sometime. But I know that's not always possible as it is for me to just run here quickly to see you.
[ Perks of being a speedster.
Plucking Jason's hand from his chest, however, he laces those fingers with his own and holds the other's hand, pressing his lips to the back of Jason's hand, though not really brushing a kiss there. Not yet at least. ]
[ Jason is kind of annoyed that the whole Bruce thing is a Big Deal. It shouldn't have to be- they're both consenting adults and this is what they want to do. He wants to give Bruce a big middle finger when it comes to his personal life, but he knows Barry isn't going to be like that. He knows it matters to him.
Jason wonders how much that's going to get in the way... or maybe they really can just be super stealth about this, and meet up here and there without him knowing. It's not like it's weird if Barry shows up to the manor, or to events in Gotham, right?
It's nice when Barry puts his arm around him, but even so, Jason feels a little guilty- maybe better than a lot guilty like he felt before. Whether Barry is teasing or not, Jason knows he fucked up there. ]
I'll try not to be.
[ He can try, at least. Jason kisses Barry's lips lightly when he bumps their heads together, fingers still carding through his hair. But it's when Barry takes his hand and laces their fingers that Jason feels that renewed warmth blossom across his chest, and he smiles softly, trying to push all the doom and gloom out of his head. ]
I'll come to your place first chance I get, alright? Bruce can deal for a day or two. He's got other people. Hell, he'd probably prefer 'em over me.
[ Gently, he lets those lips brush a soft kiss over the back of Jason's hand before he comes to bring their joined hands up to his cheek and he nuzzles them, brown eyes flicking their gaze over to Jason. ]
He'll probably find out eventually.
[ He lets his thoughts be known to Jason, falling quiet after a moment, still nuzzling at the back of that hand he holds there against his cheek. ]
I think I'm just โ I don't want to disappoint him? You're family to him. You know him and he knows you in a way I don't know either of you and that's ok. Really. I just...
[ Sighing, he tilts his head this way and that in contemplation, licking over his lips as he brings their joined hands around to press his lips in thought there against the back of Jason's hand again. Needing that connection. To be grounded in this moment with how rapid fire his thoughts can be. ]
It's different when it's family and not just a teammate. I don't think he'd care so much if I was seeing someone from the League. But you're... family. In a way we aren't to him. That has to mean something.
[ Jason can't help but say defiantly, because really... so what? What does this even have to do with Bruce? He likes Barry and Barry seems to like him too, and if Bruce has a problem with that, then... whatever. Jason doesn't want to care.
What's he gonna do, kick Barry off the Justice League? Take away his Robin status? That would be a whole lot of bullshit.
Jason lets out a soft huff, but that doesn't stop him from brushing their laced fingers along Barry's cheek when he brings them there, trying to use that as an anchor to keep his own rapid fire thoughts at bay as well. Maybe it's different from what Barry experiences, but in real time, Jason's are still there, harder and harder to ignore. ]
So... you think being with me is gonna disappoint him?
[ Jason swallows hard, looking away. He almost pulls his hand away, but he doesn't really want to. ]
I'm not family to him. Not in the way that you think. I'm just... someone he's taken in to replace someone else. I mean... deep down I know that. Everyone knows that. I'm grateful he took me in, and I fucking love being Robin, but I love this a lot too and I don't think it's fair to like... base the whole damn thing on Bruce.
[ He's grateful that Jason doesn't think to pull away entirely and fingers seem to squeeze a little tighter then as he looks to him, eyes soft and searching. ]
No โ I don't.
[ Despite how quick he can be with anything and everything, his words are slow โ are soft and earnest. ]
I feel like he'll be disappointed in me because I should know better and... maybe I should. But โ I don't know. You make me feel things I've never felt before and I like being with you. I like talking to you and doing things with you and I like your motorcycle and the way you don't really care if I get really excited over super boring stuff.
[ Worrying his bottom lip, he sighs, pulling Jason's hand to brush a kiss over the back of it. ]
You're cool and I worry I'm not good enough for you.
[ Jason can already feel the overload of insecurities trying to dump on his thoughts, and he wonders how he even got this far with someone like Barry. Someone so good and so sweet, so caring and undamaged.
He doesn't look at Barry even as the other man squeezes his hand a little tighter, but it helps keep him here, even if here feels like it's starting to spiral away from him. ]
Know better than what? What are you supposed to know better about? Not being with me??
[ Jason's jaw clenches, but then as Barry goes on, his eyes slide back to him, searching his face, and then he looks down at their hands against Barry's lips. ]
You're worried you're not good enough for me? Are you kidding me? All I can fucking think about is how I'm not good enough for you. How I'm just gonna... constantly fuck this up, even though you make me feel things I've never felt before either.
[ The fact that they share an equal amount of insecurity about this is... somehow it tracks? Given how they both are. Even with the League, Barry felt insecure with his place on it. He wasn't super strong, wasn't a fighter, didn't have any cool gadgets or piloting skills. He was just... fast. He had, however, eventually come to find his place and his importance on the team and maybe that's what he need to do here. With Jason. With this. ]
I mean โ you've seen Superman, right? Aquaman? Even Wonder Woman. I am like โ not first pick of the hottest and coolest on the team, ok? I will just... flat out admit that right here and now.
[ He sounds like he's joking but really, he's not. ]
I... like you. A lot. Way more than I probably should. I just... want you. Like this. Like the park. Like getting food.
So what you're trying to tell me is you think Bruce won't think you're good enough for me because you're not... Superman or Wonder Woman. Man, you're like... seriously overestimating how he thinks about me cause that's like... total bullshit.
[ Jason does pull his hand away this time, and scrubs it over his face before pushing himself up on his arm to look down at Barry. He doesn't get it. He doesn't get how Barry feels like he's the one not good enough, when that's all Jason has been. Barry is incredible, and he's just... bullshit.
But Barry's words stop him dead in his tracks, and that frustrating self hatred of his trickles away into a confused, but relieved look.]
I like you too. I want you too. I wanna be with you. Like... fuck everyone else kinda be with you. And I really thought you didn't wanna be with me cause of the whole date thing... but that's what I want. And I can be better... and you don't have to worry about disappointing anyone cause it's never gonna be you who disappoints, Barry. You're amazing.
[ Barry would disagree so strongly in Jason thinking that he's bullshit. He may be a little rough around the edges at times and his words are sometimes liable to cut with how sharp they can be, but... Barry's done pretty well for himself in knowing how to handle it. Somewhat.
Still, when Jason seems to more or less feel the same way โ I like you too, I want you too, I wanna be with you โ Barry finds himself coming to lean up on his elbows and he just... stares to the other for a long quiet moment, before he finally lets a smile tug at the corners of his lips. ]
Then... let's see what happens?
[ Words that are soft, genuine, and earnest in every way they possibly can be. ]
If... you want to, that is. Perks of being so fast is that I can be here whenever you need me to. No long travel times there. [ Wearing a gentle smile on his lips, he swallows, feeling his heart hammer in his chest. ] I'm willing to see if you are.
[ Barry's done really well for himself, considering Jason's emotional distress tolerance is like that of a damn child, and he doesn't know how to fix any of that, or even work on it. Maybe none of this will be fair to Barry in the end... or maybe Jason will surprise even himself.
Even now he feels like he's on the verge of an emotional breakdown, but Barry looks at him in such a way that helps push it all back, and Jason takes a deep breath, looking down for a moment as he nods. Okay. Okay, he can work with this. ]
I want to.
[ His hand slides across the sheets to find Barry's again, looking at him. ]
I wanna see what happens, and I don't give a shit what anyone else thinks.
[ The smile on his lips could light up a room with how bright and warm it is, laughter softly spilling from his lips as he cranes his neck to drop his head against his shoulder, fingers taking Jason's within their own when he reaches for them. ]
Ok then. Seeing what happens is a go then.
[ And, try as he might, he can't resist and leans himself over to steal a warm kiss from those lips, fingers squeezing Jason's a little tighter as he does so. A gentle touch of reassurance for something he doesn't know the outcome of, but. He wants to see. He wants this right here. He wants Jason, in any way he can get him. ]
[ That smile really does light up the room, and Jason can't help but smile in return, because how could anyone not? It's enough to get him to think that maybe this will turn out differently than everything has in the past.
Jason nuzzles into Barry's hair, more than happy to lace their fingers back together again.
They deserve to have a chance, don't they? All Jason ever wants is to have a chance at things. ]
That's what I like to hear.
[ he says against Barry's lips before kissing him some more, slow and deep as if they have all the time in the world, at least when it comes to kisses. When the kiss breaks, Jason groans a bit and pushes Barry back a bit to lay half on top of him. ]
Wish we could just spend the night together. Don't really wanna be without you right now.
[ He lets Jason fall into him and drapes an arm around his shoulder again, laying there amidst the tangle of sheets with the smell of sex still tightly gripping him. He's quiet for a moment before he brushes the pad of his thumb against Jason's shoulder, letting his thoughts drift a bit as he turns his face into him. ]
I know. [ Even as he says that, he drops a kiss to Jason's head. Slow and soft. ] But we'll figure something out. We'll find time. Just a lot of trial and error at first I guess. Finding what works and what doesn't.
[ Considering they both have their own cities to look after but, again, it helps that Barry is as fast as he is. Even if it means he'll be the one doing most of the going back and forth. It's fine. He can juggle it. Just like he does crimefighting, work, and some semblance of a life. What's adding a romantic relationship of sorts to the mix, right? He's got this. ]
[ Maybe it's a lot to manage, and that's why this sort of romantic thing has a terribly low success rate among crime fighting vigilantes, but Jason doesn't care. Maybe others couldn't handle it, but Jason knows he can, and the fastest man alive can handle it too, right? ]
Yeah, trial and error... I'm cool with that. And maybe sometimes we can just come here after we get out crime fighting on. Just to like, crash or whatever.
[ That would be nice, and he'd do it without making Bruce suspicious, because he knows Barry is worried about that. He does feel bad that Barry is going to have to do a lot of the traveling, though. He doesn't want that to start getting annoying. ]
I mean โ you could? Just might take you awhile to.
[ When distance is regarded as a factor in things, Barry really is the better choice for being the one to do the traveling. Not to say that he'll always be able to drop everything and come running as he does have a life and responsibilities of his own, but. He can find the time to. Always.
Coming to gently play with Jason's fingers, he brings that hand up to his mouth and drops a kiss there. Soft. Sweet. Matching the smile he wears on his lips. ]
Yeah, a real long fucking while. Maybe I can just steal one of B's jets.
[ he laughs softly, cause he's totally just kidding about that (or is he??). he'll have to check up on how quickly he can get to central city though, so barry isn't the only one going back and forth all the time.
the kiss to his hand gets him to slow it down though, as do barry's words. he really is worrying too much about this, isn't it. he lets out soft huff, smile on his lips as he nods. ]
Yeah. Okay, you're right. Shit, I've never had anyone tell me to chill out before.
[ very, very false, but jason's dead sure of it anyway. ]
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He comes hard for it being his second time in a short span of time, but it feels even better, even more intense than the first, his whole body thrumming with it. Barry's lips on him make him tingle, but nothing feels as good as when he can feel the other man spill his load inside of him too. He cries out again, tightening around Barry's length as much as he can, wanting to pull every last drop from him and keep it all inside himself.
Jason can feel his heart flutter at the praise, nuzzling into Barry's hair as his arms go around him to hold him close. He's never felt this close or completely full with anyone before, and he wants to hold on to it for as long as he can.]
Wanna be good for you. Always gonna be good for you.
[ he breathes out, then nudges barry's head up so he can give him a deep and sloppy kiss, still overflowing with need and want. ]
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[ Gentle words of praise and reassurance that he feeds to Jason through kisses and brushes of lips over warm skin. When the other more or less demands his lips against his, he gives them over, letting Jason kiss him as hard and as many times as he wants.
At least until he comes to tip him back against the bed, dropping him down and shifting to tower over him. ]
Why does the life of crimefighting have to get in the way of moments like these?
[ He murmurs the words against the other's neck, a soft little whine given before the huff of laughter comes and he presses a few more kisses along Jason's shoulder and neck, just wanting to be close to and taste him however he can. ]
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He smiles when Barry drops them back onto the bed, kissing him for as long as he can until the two of them break apart. Jason doesn't let Barry go far though, moving his arms and legs up around him to hold him there. ]
Doesn't have to get in the way. We can do anything we want.
[ Jason's motto, pretty much, even though he knows he has responsibilities. He doesn't care much about any of that with Barry still deep inside of him, lips still moving all across his skin. ]
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Maybe if we didn't have responsibilities, baby.
[ Words he brushes over Jason's cheek with a hum and a soft smile before he pulls back just enough to look down to Jason, still towering over him โ still deep inside him. ]
You make it difficult for me to want to say no to you.
[ Something he says a little playfully but, also quite serious in the gentle accusation made. Being here like this with Jason is... different. So different to anything he's ever had before and he wants to keep holding onto it for as long as he can. Granted, after All Of This, he likes to think that they're on better footing with one another what with having "made up" and all. Or at least, that's how it seems.
Shifting a bit, he hums as he buries his face in the crook of the other's neck and fingers gently brush along Jason's side, Barry just laying there atop him for a few more moments. ]
At least it's easy for me to come see you.
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I'll have to work on that then, to make it impossible.
[ Jason's lips curl into a small, mischievous smile, hands sliding up and down Barry's back. Everything is still hazy and good, and there's no rush just yet, right? Neither of them feel like they want to move anyway, especially with the way Barry is laying on top of him. ]
This mean we're gonna see each other more often? Like... all the time?
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[ Barry huffs a quiet laugh into the crook of Jason's neck, pulling back then just enough to look down to him, head tilting, eyes soft like his smile. ]
You sure you're not going to get sick of me if we start doing that?
[ He's teasing, of course, and to show that he is, he steals a playful little kiss from those lips, humming as he does. Still close to him, still inside him, still not wanting to fully dislodge himself from the tangle of limbs he's managed to get himself wrapped up in. ]
You should come to Central City some time. You can stay at my place. I'll show you around.
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Eh, who knows. Maybe I would.
[ He absolutely wouldn't, he's pretty damn sure of that, and he kisses Barry right back to show it, though he doesn't want to come on too strong. How could he ever get sick of this? It's really good that Barry is able to come see him whenever, but Jason wishes he could do the same. He'll have to figure this out somehow. ]
Yeah, I'd like that. I really want to, whenever you're up for it.
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[ Because Jason can't just take off whenever he feels like it when Gotham needs Robin, right? That's just... not how it usually works...? He's not too sure on the whole "set up" Bruce might have over there and with Jason, but. He's not about to encourage the other to get into some sort of spat or trouble with the B-Man. Even if he'd love to see him.
Regardless, those are thoughts to be dealt with another day as, right now, he presses a kiss to Jason's forehead and rolls himself off the other only to lay there beside him on his back. A few deep breaths, Barry brings a hand up to his own head and cards fingers through the mess that it is. ]
You know if this is making up, it's pretty good.
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[ Jason feels like he's kinda digging himself into a hole here, despite how wrapped around each other they are right now. But it's not as if Barry isn't telling him it's okay if stays over, right?
But then there's his schedule too. And yeah... Bruce. ]
I can take a few days off when B goes to do Justice League things... which... oh. Right. That includes you. So you wouldn't be available then either.
[ Right. Perfect. How do people do this shit?
The literal worst feeling in the world is when Barry finally pulls out and rolls off of him, but Jason rolls right with him, not wanting to part much as he lays on his side, half on top of Barry anyway, feeling the other man's cum start to leak out between his legs. He reaches up and follows the same bath as Barry's fingers, carding his own fingers through his hair.]
Didn't really like the fighting part, thought. I mean... was that even a fight, or was that just me being an asshole?
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When Jason turns into him, however, Barry welcomes him with a soft little hum, arm draping around the other's shoulder as he holds him close and lays there, looking up to the ceiling in thought. ]
Maybe a bit of both. Though you were kind of an asshole, yeah.
[ Looking to him, he wears a playful little grin on his lips before he huffs a quiet laugh and bumps his head against Jason's. Clearly to show that he's gently teasing him there. ]
I'd like it if you could come out to my place sometime. But I know that's not always possible as it is for me to just run here quickly to see you.
[ Perks of being a speedster.
Plucking Jason's hand from his chest, however, he laces those fingers with his own and holds the other's hand, pressing his lips to the back of Jason's hand, though not really brushing a kiss there. Not yet at least. ]
We'll figure something out.
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Jason wonders how much that's going to get in the way... or maybe they really can just be super stealth about this, and meet up here and there without him knowing. It's not like it's weird if Barry shows up to the manor, or to events in Gotham, right?
It's nice when Barry puts his arm around him, but even so, Jason feels a little guilty- maybe better than a lot guilty like he felt before. Whether Barry is teasing or not, Jason knows he fucked up there. ]
I'll try not to be.
[ He can try, at least. Jason kisses Barry's lips lightly when he bumps their heads together, fingers still carding through his hair. But it's when Barry takes his hand and laces their fingers that Jason feels that renewed warmth blossom across his chest, and he smiles softly, trying to push all the doom and gloom out of his head. ]
I'll come to your place first chance I get, alright? Bruce can deal for a day or two. He's got other people. Hell, he'd probably prefer 'em over me.
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He'll probably find out eventually.
[ He lets his thoughts be known to Jason, falling quiet after a moment, still nuzzling at the back of that hand he holds there against his cheek. ]
I think I'm just โ I don't want to disappoint him? You're family to him. You know him and he knows you in a way I don't know either of you and that's ok. Really. I just...
[ Sighing, he tilts his head this way and that in contemplation, licking over his lips as he brings their joined hands around to press his lips in thought there against the back of Jason's hand again. Needing that connection. To be grounded in this moment with how rapid fire his thoughts can be. ]
It's different when it's family and not just a teammate. I don't think he'd care so much if I was seeing someone from the League. But you're... family. In a way we aren't to him. That has to mean something.
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[ Jason can't help but say defiantly, because really... so what? What does this even have to do with Bruce? He likes Barry and Barry seems to like him too, and if Bruce has a problem with that, then... whatever. Jason doesn't want to care.
What's he gonna do, kick Barry off the Justice League? Take away his Robin status? That would be a whole lot of bullshit.
Jason lets out a soft huff, but that doesn't stop him from brushing their laced fingers along Barry's cheek when he brings them there, trying to use that as an anchor to keep his own rapid fire thoughts at bay as well. Maybe it's different from what Barry experiences, but in real time, Jason's are still there, harder and harder to ignore. ]
So... you think being with me is gonna disappoint him?
[ Jason swallows hard, looking away. He almost pulls his hand away, but he doesn't really want to. ]
I'm not family to him. Not in the way that you think. I'm just... someone he's taken in to replace someone else. I mean... deep down I know that. Everyone knows that. I'm grateful he took me in, and I fucking love being Robin, but I love this a lot too and I don't think it's fair to like... base the whole damn thing on Bruce.
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No โ I don't.
[ Despite how quick he can be with anything and everything, his words are slow โ are soft and earnest. ]
I feel like he'll be disappointed in me because I should know better and... maybe I should. But โ I don't know. You make me feel things I've never felt before and I like being with you. I like talking to you and doing things with you and I like your motorcycle and the way you don't really care if I get really excited over super boring stuff.
[ Worrying his bottom lip, he sighs, pulling Jason's hand to brush a kiss over the back of it. ]
You're cool and I worry I'm not good enough for you.
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He doesn't look at Barry even as the other man squeezes his hand a little tighter, but it helps keep him here, even if here feels like it's starting to spiral away from him. ]
Know better than what? What are you supposed to know better about? Not being with me??
[ Jason's jaw clenches, but then as Barry goes on, his eyes slide back to him, searching his face, and then he looks down at their hands against Barry's lips. ]
You're worried you're not good enough for me? Are you kidding me? All I can fucking think about is how I'm not good enough for you. How I'm just gonna... constantly fuck this up, even though you make me feel things I've never felt before either.
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I mean โ you've seen Superman, right? Aquaman? Even Wonder Woman. I am like โ not first pick of the hottest and coolest on the team, ok? I will just... flat out admit that right here and now.
[ He sounds like he's joking but really, he's not. ]
I... like you. A lot. Way more than I probably should. I just... want you. Like this. Like the park. Like getting food.
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[ Jason does pull his hand away this time, and scrubs it over his face before pushing himself up on his arm to look down at Barry. He doesn't get it. He doesn't get how Barry feels like he's the one not good enough, when that's all Jason has been. Barry is incredible, and he's just... bullshit.
But Barry's words stop him dead in his tracks, and that frustrating self hatred of his trickles away into a confused, but relieved look.]
I like you too. I want you too. I wanna be with you. Like... fuck everyone else kinda be with you. And I really thought you didn't wanna be with me cause of the whole date thing... but that's what I want. And I can be better... and you don't have to worry about disappointing anyone cause it's never gonna be you who disappoints, Barry. You're amazing.
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Still, when Jason seems to more or less feel the same way โ I like you too, I want you too, I wanna be with you โ Barry finds himself coming to lean up on his elbows and he just... stares to the other for a long quiet moment, before he finally lets a smile tug at the corners of his lips. ]
Then... let's see what happens?
[ Words that are soft, genuine, and earnest in every way they possibly can be. ]
If... you want to, that is. Perks of being so fast is that I can be here whenever you need me to. No long travel times there. [ Wearing a gentle smile on his lips, he swallows, feeling his heart hammer in his chest. ] I'm willing to see if you are.
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Even now he feels like he's on the verge of an emotional breakdown, but Barry looks at him in such a way that helps push it all back, and Jason takes a deep breath, looking down for a moment as he nods. Okay. Okay, he can work with this. ]
I want to.
[ His hand slides across the sheets to find Barry's again, looking at him. ]
I wanna see what happens, and I don't give a shit what anyone else thinks.
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Ok then. Seeing what happens is a go then.
[ And, try as he might, he can't resist and leans himself over to steal a warm kiss from those lips, fingers squeezing Jason's a little tighter as he does so. A gentle touch of reassurance for something he doesn't know the outcome of, but. He wants to see. He wants this right here. He wants Jason, in any way he can get him. ]
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Jason nuzzles into Barry's hair, more than happy to lace their fingers back together again.
They deserve to have a chance, don't they? All Jason ever wants is to have a chance at things. ]
That's what I like to hear.
[ he says against Barry's lips before kissing him some more, slow and deep as if they have all the time in the world, at least when it comes to kisses. When the kiss breaks, Jason groans a bit and pushes Barry back a bit to lay half on top of him. ]
Wish we could just spend the night together. Don't really wanna be without you right now.
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I know. [ Even as he says that, he drops a kiss to Jason's head. Slow and soft. ] But we'll figure something out. We'll find time. Just a lot of trial and error at first I guess. Finding what works and what doesn't.
[ Considering they both have their own cities to look after but, again, it helps that Barry is as fast as he is. Even if it means he'll be the one doing most of the going back and forth. It's fine. He can juggle it. Just like he does crimefighting, work, and some semblance of a life. What's adding a romantic relationship of sorts to the mix, right? He's got this. ]
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Yeah, trial and error... I'm cool with that. And maybe sometimes we can just come here after we get out crime fighting on. Just to like, crash or whatever.
[ That would be nice, and he'd do it without making Bruce suspicious, because he knows Barry is worried about that. He does feel bad that Barry is going to have to do a lot of the traveling, though. He doesn't want that to start getting annoying. ]
Wish I could just ride my bike to your place.
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[ When distance is regarded as a factor in things, Barry really is the better choice for being the one to do the traveling. Not to say that he'll always be able to drop everything and come running as he does have a life and responsibilities of his own, but. He can find the time to. Always.
Coming to gently play with Jason's fingers, he brings that hand up to his mouth and drops a kiss there. Soft. Sweet. Matching the smile he wears on his lips. ]
Don't worry so much, ok? We'll figure it out.
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[ he laughs softly, cause he's totally just kidding about that (or is he??). he'll have to check up on how quickly he can get to central city though, so barry isn't the only one going back and forth all the time.
the kiss to his hand gets him to slow it down though, as do barry's words. he really is worrying too much about this, isn't it. he lets out soft huff, smile on his lips as he nods. ]
Yeah. Okay, you're right. Shit, I've never had anyone tell me to chill out before.
[ very, very false, but jason's dead sure of it anyway. ]
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